Trust The Process
To continue from yesterday, I don't know what it was but it felt like I was coming down with something. I continued to feel worse until Wheel of Fortune came on and, in my mind, Irene was there with me as usual and I completely calmed down and felt much better mentally and emotionally, even though I still felt a little under the weather. I had to keep reminding myself to stop thinking, to stop trying to figure it out, that when I felt like that it's time to just get through and let time pass until I feel better. I told myself I'd feel fine in the morning - and I do! It's so baffling how, when I feel that way, all these strange and unsettling thoughts and mental/emotional sensations manifest. Also, my ability to even think about those thoughts and feelings rationally or objectively becomes impaired and I end up fueling them somehow. This morning I'm thinking that "trying to figure something out", which used to be my "go-to" process, is ac...