Wednesday, June 21, 2017 The Tide Turns?
Wow, still felt completely different when I woke up. Got a little irrationally concerned that I had broken something or messed something up because I felt so unemotional. I realized that if we are actually embarked on a new form of our relationship, the thing to keep in mind is that a lot of it before was actually bittersweet - love infused with pain and sorrow and a kind of forlorn, longing nostalgia (which started even before she died.) I started getting hints of our new relationship, though, and it is just like I felt before that I have commented on when I experienced those times of grace the past couple of months – a happy, joyful, playful love without pain, sorrow or longing. Just did a session with Irene, not because I needed to relieve pain, or had to in order to help prevent pain, but because I wanted to! No forlorn longing. No grief or sadness – I just wanted to be with my wife and listen and do my part in establishing and understanding our n...