Wednesday, June 7, 2017 Overthinking Everything
I woke up feeling better, started feeling worse, said the heck with it and. went back to sleep. Sometimes the only reasonable response to irrational heartache is sleep. If you can. I've been very lucky in this respect. Got to feeling worse and worse, full of confusion, didn’t even do a morning routine because I was so confused about it and felt so bad and unmotivated. Sat down around noon and prayed the usual, then started meditating and the realization came to me that I was just making it all too hard. I didn’t want to do my old formal Sant Mat meditation and I didn’t want to listen to any of the things people wrote in books about what I should or shouldn’t do that didn't make sense to me. It's too confusing. I focused directly on Irene and on words that applied to her – love, joy, feeling whole and complete, connection, soul mate, delight, happiness – and then she was with me, I could feel it all, her sitting cross-legged in front of me, holding my extend...