The "Us" I Long For
Last night I started getting sad so I went outside and sat on the swing and talked to Irene. At first I thought that I was missing her - natural enough, nothing to be overly concerned about. This was sticking longer so I started examining the sensation and realized I wasn't missing the Irene that had passed away, or even the Irene that I had been with for 27 years. I wasn't even missing Irene , per se. I was actually longing for us , but not any version of us that ever existed in this world. Oh, believe me, we had our moments - many of them. Some of our "moments" lasted a long time and many were very, very special - well worth remembering and even revisiting/reliving if we get the chance. Long conversations, long drives, humor, intimacy, passion. The thing is, though, that even though we are soul mates, there wasn't a time that we were together in this world that we were not heavily laden with issues, responsibilities and burdens, internal and external....