Still Going Strong
We've finally had a break in the heat as Fall approaches. I'm feeling even more connected to Irene, happy and blissfully content. Last night and this morning I was telling Irene that I must have gotten to the point where my subconscious has become greatly in line with the continuation of our relationship because there's no other way to account for my ongoing excitement and enthusiasm about us going forward. If, somewhere in my subconscious, I felt like Irene was "gone", or I felt like I was lying to myself about our relationship, I would certainly feel miserable. The only reason anything in life mattered to me before she crossed over, or was enjoyable at all, was my connection to Irene. Meeting her and being with her changed everything about my perspective, but that was always dependent on having her with me. Just being in contact with her would melt away all angst and worry and fill me with peace and a sense of equanimity. That's what I have been feel...