The Effects Of The Answer?
I woke up this morning actually feeling satisfied and happy. I don't think I realized how big a weight that single unanswered question from yesterday has been weighing on me. In fact, it's something I realize now has been weighing on me my entire life - but I definitely see why it was important for me to not know the answer until now - to really, truly experience the lack and loss I came here to experience. Knowing that I came here for that reason changes everything in a fundamental way. I can also now understand why some come here to experience truly horrible conditions and events. That sense of deep appreciation afterward is not something that can be faked or learned academically or through simulation. It all makes sense to me now. I'm not saying this is the reason everyone comes here - I don't think that's the case by any means. But for me, it puts my life in a perspective were I can really understand it and accept it and see clearly why the things that h...