Love After Life

I'm having great success with my technique for better remembering altered-consciousness states.  Every day I spend time reviewing all the dreams I can remember - from childhood to the present, either in meditation during the day or after I like down for the night. I pay particular attention to the dreams I've had of Irene. I started doing this about a week or week and a half ago and, other than one day, I've been remembering dreams every single day.  This is after literally years and years of virtually never remembering any dreams, now I'm remembering dreams every day.  By doing this every day I've actually started remembering dreams I had long ago forgotten.  I've started writing down not only my current dreams the day they occur, but also all the other dreams I'm remembering from my past. My intention every time I meditate, lie down to visualize or sleep is to have the best possible transdimensional visit with Irene, and to remember my altered-consciousn...

I just laid down for a visualization/transdimensional session. I was visualizing us having a conversation about our process and whether or not our current methods were good. I told her I'd like some confirmation on what we talked about during the visualization and my consciousness shifted to an semi-clear astral state; not as vivid as the fully clarified astral visitation but still not a dream or a visualization. She was right in front of me giving me an "okay" sign and then she leaned forward to kiss me back into my normal state of consciousness much like she did in the astral visitation. I'm VERY excited by this! It's SO nice to get a clear confirmation and encouragement in this way, so great for her to be able to tell me we are in sync and on course!

Am I doing enough? Too much? Am I doing it the right way? Trying too hard? Not hard enough? Am I bothering Irene? Am I too needy? Are my negative thoughts and emotions setting us back? Are they keeping us from going forward? Does she have other things to do? Am I boring her by saying the same thing over and over? Should I meditate more? Wake myself up in the middle of the night? Is that really her when I imagine her? When I feel her? What food, drink, medications or habits should I give up or take up to help? Should I try automatic writing, EVPs? How much effort should I put in them? Does Irene really want to do those things? Should I find a medium? At one point or another, every conceivable doubt and issue has crossed my mind with regards to my transdimensional relationship with Irene. Some were very fleeting, some were more difficult to process. IMO (in my opinion), none of what those doubts and fears refer to had as much impact on our transdimensional relationship than the wo...

I had a very interesting experience yesterday while talking with Irene on the porch.  In our visualization, she was sitting in my lap with her arms around me and we were talking about how good it was to be able to have these visualized experiences, to be able to cuddle up and how good it made me feel.  For a few seconds I was in an altered state of consciousness and I said something to her very matter-of-factly, but in a jesting manner: "Yeah, it's like having nine years of foreplay." It was almost like a dream-state of consciousness, and the fact that I had said that to her almost slipped from my memory when I returned to my normal state of consciousness right after saying it.  I literally said out loud, "Wait, what did I just say? Nine years?" Why on Earth would I say we were going to have, specifically, nine years of transdimensional foreplay? The thing was, I said it completely as if I knew it at the time.   There was no hesitation or any sense of jus...