Love After Life

Last night I was talking with Irene before I fell asleep and we were thinking about things she could put in dreams to help me remember, and what I wanted. I told her I really wanted to see her, and that maybe I could eat something and see what I looked like because I've never had a dream where I looked in a mirror or ate something. Just prior to that during the day, we had been talking about all the things we had come to us our physical life together here after we met - everything we ever wanted. She had a dream of meeting me the night before we met where we were standing by a black truck. When she finally got her black truck, she would joke "uh oh, I must be about to die because now I actually do have everything I ever wanted." She actually did die shortly after that, but we continue to joke about it. I recently got a bigger, new, badder truck (through no effort on my part) she absolutely loves and we planned on having on the other side. So in the dream Irene is driving...

About a year before Irene crossed over she got the last piece of her puzzle from the dream she had of us; the black truck.  She joked then that she must be about to die because "Now I have everything." I generally drive around a couple a times a week in that truck doing local errands like going to the store or the post office basically to keep it in running condition, but mostly to feel help me feel connected to Irene.  We were probably out and around driving together in that truck only two or three times, but seeing that truck parked beside my driveway is a comfort. My daughter Ivori and my grandson Emanuel were over yesterday, and Emanuel asked about the truck.  I knew what he was getting at - he just got his driver's license.  I know he and Irene had talked about the truck; she and I had talked about it and that if things went that way, he should get to drive it if he still wanted it. However, shortly after she died someone brought it up and I said that I was ...