Love After Life

Talk about a lot of conspiring events - work, family, bad atmosphere, and so much to do today has left my brain completely fried.  No grief, however, and only a little sadness of the pity party variety.  I feel so exhausted and overwhelmed, but again - no crash.  That's really the big point - I can experience a day like today and not fall back into grief makes me feel like it has really been defeated. I wrote the above yesterday, but had a brain that was far too fried to finish.  I went to sleep last night totally overwhelmed with work and family stuff and woke up feeling pretty much the same.  At some point I asked my spirit team for some help overcoming my anxiety and the following immediately popped into my mind: "It's nothing compared to what you went through when Irene died." That thought, that "meme", washed over me like a solvent, dissolving my anxiety and making me laugh. Then this popped in my head, "We've been through worse than this, ...

What a day I had yesterday.  So sorry I wasn't able to post, but I by the time I got home I was really too drained to do anything with my brain other than eat, walk the dogs and go to sleep early. We had a meeting with an attorney over some of the issues that came crashing into our lives earlier this week and that took longer than expected.  I can't get into any of it here, but let's just say it's something that would ordinarily be very, very stressful, even though it didn't directly involve me.  I never really felt stressed, although my mind was more on those issues than anything else, and I kept having to refocus on our happy frequency again and again.  It did keep me feeling centered and really rather removed from the situation. Also, driving tends to wear me out and I ran other errands in town, so I'm sure that contributed to the draining fatigue I felt yesterday evening. Other than that, though, I felt great mentally and emotionally - I didn't crash...