Love After Life

A couple of days ago I was sitting out on the front porch talking with Irene.  The conversation turned to things we remembered from our time together here, the things that were very easy to remember, really "burning bright" in our minds.  We went through probably about a dozen different memories and talked about how much they meant to us. Afterward I realized I had basically dug into memories and didn't have a single moment where I felt sad.  Usually going though memories is like walking through a minefield, but that's gradually changed over time and now I can pretty much freely think about he past without it causing me sorrow.  Going through those memories actually made me very happy and we had a great time and quite a few laughs. Night before last my daughter Gerra called and we talked most of the night. After I went back to sleep early in the morning I had my first astral projection, exactly the way I intend/affirm every day -by  just finding myself astra...

I had to drive into town again this morning. I really dislike having my routine interrupted but we (Irene and I) had a fun trip in and back. Later I was reading in the Facebook Grief Support Group about “moving on” and “finding a friend with benefits” or another life-partner. I thought it would be funny to reply something like “Well, Irene would haunt and harass the heck out of anyone that tried to get their hands on her man, so that wouldn’t be a good idea for me.” I didn’t, but it reminded me that Irene always said she was possessive , not jealous – you can only be jealous of what you don’t already have, and she already had me. I joked with her that you’re not supposed to be possessive in heaven and immediately thought about her saying “You just try it.” We both had a big laugh. That started this whole conversation I was going on with Irene about how ridiculous that would be – how miserable anything like another relationship would make me, how I’m extremely happy to be alone ...