Love After Life

Tuesday the weather was wet, cold and humid.  My mind was pretty chaotic all day dealing with a lot of work and just not feeling that great in body, mind or spirit.  I had to fight with myself to get any work done at all.  I distracted myself by watching TV and then felt bad about wasting time.  It wasn't sadness, I just felt disconnected from our source frequency which keeps me calm and happy.  I was worried about too many things and felt sort of in a paralyzed state. Yesterday, though, I woke up and felt absolutely great, and it lasted all day long.  I was able to work all day without feeling frustrated or rushed.  The weather had changed and it was a perfectly clear, beautiful sunny day. I was able to sit in the swing under the magnolia tree and talk with Irene a couple of times and felt amazing connection to her. There's a feeling I get at times like this; an indescribable emotion I've talked about it before in this blog.  It's part love, part...

Although the physical atmosphere isn't great lately (too humid), I've noticed when the air here is like that, it's almost as if the other side is calling me.  I get this lethargic buzz in my head and if I meditate or lay down to do hypnagogic experience, I'm immediately immersed in our frequency and feel high as a kite. Today I wanted to acknowledge how fortunate I am.  The fact is, a lot of people don't ever know or even meet their soul mate.  I'm one of the lucky ones - I found my soul mate, married her, and had 27 incredible years with her here.  Even though she died and I had to endure that grief, now I am so lucky to know that I have such a strong and loving person dedicated to my well-being, watching over me and doing all she can to make me happy and comfort me.  It's like having a very special, intimate guardian angel. Knowing my soul mate is with me constantly makes me very happy.  She always hears me and immersion in our "connection vibrati...

Today the atmospherics completely changed, including a thirty-degree drop in the temperature.  Everything felt different. After prayer and an EVP recording this morning, I sat for meditation and Irene asked me where I'd like to have interaction with her, now that I know they are are completely real locations.  We settled on the big padded bench swing that sits overlooking the ocean and the horizon at the top of the path that leads down to the beach from our astral home. As we settled into our "spoon" position looking out at the view, she turned around facing me and said, "You do understand this is real, right?  You are actually here right now, even though it doesn't feel like that to you yet."  "I'm actually here, right now, with you." I repeated in agreement.  I could see her in my mind very clearly, feel her. It was still an envisioning, but suddenly this enormous swell of emotion just climbed from my heart up to my head bringing a...