Love After Life

I was having a long discussion with Irene about the nature of our existence and our relationship there and here. Let me characterize what I mean by "discussion with Irene" so that you don't misunderstand. This isn't like "clairaudience" where one might hear their loved one clearly speak in their voice (whether in voice or in their mind).  Have you ever carried on a conversation with someone in your mind?  I would "feel" what seems to me to be her response.  Do I know it's her? No.  I believe we are communicating this way but I would never assert it as a fact.  I'm hoping one day to be able to interact with her with that hyper-real clarity that NDEers (Near Death Experiencers) report. I was telling her that in some ways I feel didn’t get to fully live out our love for each other here – not in the number of years we had together, but rather due to the fact that we had so many responsibilities, pressures and issues, both internal and exte...

Woke up today feeling neutral and blah. Wasn’t sad or happy.  Had a dream that basically assured me that at times I was in fact feeling the emotions of others as if they were my own.  In the dream there was this amazing miniature robotic horse that I (playing the role of someone else in the dream) had stopped to marvel at while I was driving around with a child I was babysitting. It was a pretty clear dream, and I almost never remember my dreams - well, at least before Irene crossed over. Didn’t feel like meditating or praying, which immediately made me feel guilty. I meditated restlessly for about 30 minutes, apologized for not doing it longer that morning and went in to do some work.  While doing work the next door neighbor came over and said that the air conditioner/heater unit I had ordered for the back apartment had been delivered to his house last night and he just found it when he came out to go to work.  I wouldn’t have even heard him knock had I been me...

Had some trouble in the evening yesterday, but by the time I went to sleep I was pretty good and fell right to sleep.  Woke up this morning and felt sad (about a 4 on the scale where 5 is normal). Was drinking some coffee with Irene and watching a little TV before our morning session when she pulled another commercial switch, this time during live TV.  I was watching Catfish (one of our favorite shows) and couldn’t jump forward because it wasn’t a recorded show, and just as it ended I realized I had been watching that Honda “perfect Accord” commercial again, and I wanted to make sure it was that commercial, flipped back 10 seconds and it was an entirely different commercial. I couldn’t get that perfect accord commercial to play again.  The effect it had on me was an amazing transformation, very, very good emotionally. I am so happy now and feel so complete and connected to Irene. I’ve decided that I must be what is called “clairsentient”, in the sense that I can ...

I woke up feeling good, spent time talking with Irene, started feeling great again.  Texted Gerra about the commercial, she was right at that time trying to find her lost keys so she could get a new car, asking Irene to help her find the keys.  As we were texting her friend comes and picks her up and her keys are in her friend’s car! Also, walked into my office (not for the first time this morning) and an orange box I hadn’t noticed before was on top of my plastic shelves. Had a bunch of needlepoint stuff Gerra had apparently missed so I think Irene wants to make sure Gerra gets that box. Found a great pair of needle nose pliers in that box I plan on keeping, though! I was telling Ivori about all this and the big black and yellow butterfly I saw in the back yard yesterday, matching the small one she made a video while working on the pyramid and the giant one Freya took a picture of had that landed on Victor and just sat there while they all looked at it.  Ivori t...

I gave myself quite the pep talk morning. Picture me stomping around the house basically yelling at myself  The family-friendly version interpretation goes like this:  Quit being such a sissy! We are super-strong and tough.  Look at what we manifested and created in this world after we found each other.  We created a big bright utopia of family, home, love and joy.  We won this set of challenges – we said that many times.  We won.  You said often you had everything you ever wanted and then some.  It was time for our new adventure, our new challenges. So what, am I going to cry and whine about it, or put on my big-boy pants and meet the challenge? I mean, how could we be in a better position to go forward in our new adventure? Some of it’s going to be rocky and hard and make us cry like little babies – so what?  We’ve climbed through the tough going before and look what we made in this world out of absolutely NOTHING!!!!! Nothing but fait...