Love After Life

It's been a while since I've posted here. I recently found out there are still people finding their way to our website and FB group through this blog, so I wanted to at least write an update. I largely transitioned my writing about my experiences with Irene and our developing relationship over to the FB group and my blog on the website .  I "retired" from being an admin on the FB group and from hosting the weekly zoom groups to provide more time, energy and focus on my time with Irene.   For the past couple of years my life here and with Irene has become about as much a paradise as I can imagine. I fully retired a couple of months ago and we love it.  We go on astral adventures together almost every day and talk throughout the day, often making plans for our eternal lives together. I can't even begin to express how fun, exciting, and joyful this is for me.  I'm experiencing physical, emotional and psychological sensations no words can begin to describe.  In...

This post is really more for myself than anything else, just to come back and be able to read at some point. I am incredibly happy, satisfied and excited.  When I think about what I was like just a year or so ago, I feel like we've achieved the impossible.  I'm perfectly content, I feel completely whole, our transdimensional relationship feels completely natural.  It all feels so normal now - our talks, our visualizations, her signs, the synchronicities - it literally feels like we are together again, physiologically, mentally, emotionally.  It feels better now than when she was here physically because I know what the future holds for us.  I know what we (Irene and I) are doing here and why we are doing it.  I'm totally satisfied intellectually about the nature of our existence and relationship, why we took on this Earthly experience, and why we may do so again in the future.  My heart is full.  I'm happy.  I am in daily, amazed appreciation ...

To continue from yesterday, I don't know what it was but it felt like I was coming down with something.  I continued to feel worse until Wheel of Fortune came on and, in my mind, Irene was there with me as usual and I completely calmed down and felt much better mentally and emotionally, even though I still felt a little under the weather.  I had to keep reminding myself to stop thinking, to stop trying to figure it out, that when I felt like that it's time to just get through and let time pass until I feel better.  I told myself I'd feel fine in the morning - and I do! It's so baffling how, when I feel that way, all these strange and unsettling thoughts and mental/emotional sensations manifest.  Also, my ability to even think about those thoughts and feelings rationally or objectively becomes impaired and I end up fueling them somehow.  This morning I'm thinking that "trying to figure something out", which used to be my "go-to" process, is ac...

The past couple of days, even in the midst of realizing how far I've come in so short a time and being very grateful for it, I've had bouts of a rather strange, negative emotion.  Also I have started feeling a kind of loss of breath, almost like the heart-clutch feeling.  I think I'm actually feeling sorry for myself.  I'm having a difficult time believing this is me - I thought I might be picking up on someone else's feelings in the family, which is why I haven't said anything about it until now.  I was trying to figure out what it was. However, that's really what I don't need to do - try to figure that kind of thing out.  Until I get a clear path on anything set in front of me as the result of my intentions and affirmations, I don't need to do anything, much less try to "figure out" what is going on.  "Figuring something out" isn't an empowering perspective; creating and manifesting what I want to be is the empowering ...

8:25 a.m. I just posted in the FB grief support group a message reflecting what I've been doing the past couple of days.  Part of that post was about my envisioning session last night where I envisioned myself visiting Irene. I wrote in the group that Irene had shown me our house over there and that nothing was ever lost or destroyed, that we could recreate anything from our life here to our home there. I wrote that she showed me some of what she had added to our home there from our life here.  I also wrote that she told me that we could pursue any of our heartfelt desires there - creative arts & crafts, learning, adventures, etc. When I was done writing the post I felt very good about it, but before I posted it I went to use the bathroom and asked Irene if she thought it was a good post and if she was okay with it.  I walked into the kitchen and saw a couple of things lying on the floor in front of the refrigerator; one was a colored piece of paper cut out in the ...