Love After Life

We've finally had a break in the heat as Fall approaches.  I'm feeling even more connected to Irene, happy and blissfully content.  Last night and this morning I was telling Irene that I must have gotten to the point where my subconscious has become greatly in line with the continuation of our relationship because there's no other way to account for my ongoing excitement and enthusiasm about us going forward. If, somewhere in my subconscious, I felt like Irene was "gone", or I felt like I was lying to myself about our relationship, I would certainly feel miserable. The only reason anything in life mattered to me before she crossed over, or was enjoyable at all, was my connection to Irene.  Meeting her and being with her changed everything about my perspective, but that was always dependent on having her with me.  Just being in contact with her would melt away all angst and worry and fill me with peace and a sense of equanimity. That's what I have been feel...

This post is really more for myself than anything else, just to come back and be able to read at some point. I am incredibly happy, satisfied and excited.  When I think about what I was like just a year or so ago, I feel like we've achieved the impossible.  I'm perfectly content, I feel completely whole, our transdimensional relationship feels completely natural.  It all feels so normal now - our talks, our visualizations, her signs, the synchronicities - it literally feels like we are together again, physiologically, mentally, emotionally.  It feels better now than when she was here physically because I know what the future holds for us.  I know what we (Irene and I) are doing here and why we are doing it.  I'm totally satisfied intellectually about the nature of our existence and relationship, why we took on this Earthly experience, and why we may do so again in the future.  My heart is full.  I'm happy.  I am in daily, amazed appreciation ...

I finished the first draft of my book, Transdimensional Love and I'm preparing it for a round of proofreading, editing and criticism.  It shouldn't be much longer before it is ready to be posted here since it is very concise and gets right to the process I used to overcome grief and reclaim my happy, satisfying relationship with Irene. Today was pretty much an all-kids day so there wasn't much time to meditate or work, and my routine was thrown way off without any naps, but even around my danger hour of 6:00 pm I was pretty much okay.  That's about when I able to meditate for the second time, the first one coming early this morning.  All in all I feel pretty good and I know Irene is happy about my spending the day with the kids.  I am looking forward to another astral projection attempt as I fall asleep here in a bit; that half-conscious state is becoming a good source of feeling connected. The main focus for me now is focusing on the positive empowerment of our...