Love After Life

Some things we were talking about in the Zoom group yesterday got me to thinking about the difference between what I know about life and the afterlife now, and how I react and feel during the course of my days now. Even though I updated the group on many of the fantastic things Irene and I have experienced the past week or so, I hadn't even written down one that is probably the most incredible. Irene reminded me about it this morning. In my life I've made a practice of changing my views and perspectives whenever they were not serving me well, some of it pretty deep stuff that resulted in - eventually - permanent psychological changes. In time, I would react, think and feel differently during the same kind of experiences, but it didn't happen overnight. It can take a while before a conscious change of perspective works its way throughout your body and your subconscious. This is why habits are so hard to break; our bodies and minds naturally prefer their long-standing ...

I was sitting on the porch talking with Irene, and I was thinking about how often I had wish I had already crossed over or lamented the fact that I was still here - not that my life here isn't a good one, it is. I often semi-joke with my spirit team, "I finished the will! Ready to go, any time now!" A realization came over me, though, that Irene and I are on such an exquisite journey right now. Hard, painful, at times sorrowful, made more difficult by fear and doubt - yet, I know how this journey turns out. I know what is waiting for me, and I know it will be all the sweeter, all the more joyous, all the more triumphant because of the difficulty of the path. Sure, I could have died with her - that would have been much easier. And finding ourselves together in the astral at the same time would have been great, but I know for certain it wouldn't have been anything like the experience I see ahead for us - a magnificent, glorious reunion that can only be had through a pai...

Today the atmospherics completely changed, including a thirty-degree drop in the temperature.  Everything felt different. After prayer and an EVP recording this morning, I sat for meditation and Irene asked me where I'd like to have interaction with her, now that I know they are are completely real locations.  We settled on the big padded bench swing that sits overlooking the ocean and the horizon at the top of the path that leads down to the beach from our astral home. As we settled into our "spoon" position looking out at the view, she turned around facing me and said, "You do understand this is real, right?  You are actually here right now, even though it doesn't feel like that to you yet."  "I'm actually here, right now, with you." I repeated in agreement.  I could see her in my mind very clearly, feel her. It was still an envisioning, but suddenly this enormous swell of emotion just climbed from my heart up to my head bringing a...

I was having a long discussion with Irene about the nature of our existence and our relationship there and here. Let me characterize what I mean by "discussion with Irene" so that you don't misunderstand. This isn't like "clairaudience" where one might hear their loved one clearly speak in their voice (whether in voice or in their mind).  Have you ever carried on a conversation with someone in your mind?  I would "feel" what seems to me to be her response.  Do I know it's her? No.  I believe we are communicating this way but I would never assert it as a fact.  I'm hoping one day to be able to interact with her with that hyper-real clarity that NDEers (Near Death Experiencers) report. I was telling her that in some ways I feel didn’t get to fully live out our love for each other here – not in the number of years we had together, but rather due to the fact that we had so many responsibilities, pressures and issues, both internal and exte...