Love After Life

With the perspective of now over two years of developing and achieving a very fulfilling relationship with Irene, I have a better grip on what I was actually doing the whole time - and still am.  I understand it better because I have a better understanding of what is going on and how it all works - what the different levels of existence are and represent, how it all takes place in mind and - essentially - my external world is a reflection of my internal world. What I have been building is a fully developed  psychological  life with Irene, one where she and I share the same physical space psychologically - in other words, in our minds.  The only distinction between now and the way it was before she crossed over is that I have what is called "cognitive blindness" when it comes to interacting with her in my external-world experience.  Simply put, she doesn't register in my usual external physical senses, so we have been developing our connection and interaction...

For the past month or so I've been experimenting with the concept that psychology (including the conscious, subconscious and unconscious) = experience of reality (perceptual, sensory, cognitive, emotional, reacitive). IOW, I've let go of the ideas that there are spiritual levels, different dimensions (that coming from the guy that basically coined the term "transdimensional relationship"), different energies & frequencies, planes of existence, etc., and have proceeded from t he perspective that all of existence is right here, right now, and that it is my own psychology that determines what I perceive and experience of that infinite potential. I'm not saying those other models are not valuable and effective, so please keep that in mind. I've also started writing about how this has affected my interaction with Irene, but frankly I'm just not sure it can be effectively translated due to the limitations of language and the conceptual baggage certain term...

It may seem like this blog has been off-topic for the past few posts, but getting my mental house in order has been a significant step forward.  I realize now that there was a good reason I kept resisting things like EVP and various OBE techniques along with other methods and processes for increasing my contact with Irene. Initially, all those things just felt like too much work, and I started remembering that every time in my life I worked hard at making something happen, it wouldn't and I would just get frustrated.  Most everything that has come to me in life did not come because I worked at getting it; it just came and my contribution was not screwing it up or rejecting it. Irene, of course, was just delivered into my life by source.  All I had to do was say "no" to things I did not want that came into my path, and say "yes" to Irene, even though she represented a path that, to say the least, made me very uneasy. I knew the moment she started talking to m...

A series of interesting events has led me to become fully invested in a further iteration of the "mental reality" framework that not only dispenses with so-called "spiritual levels", but also the idea of distinctly different, separated dimensions.  It is my view now that literally everything is right in front of us, around us, within us, and it is our cognitive consciousness that sorts out what we experience and what we do not. Irene is not in another dimension; she is literally right here with me. My inability to see her the way I used to is a psychological issue, nothing more. It is cognitive blindness: I cannot experience that which does not fit within this framework of my conscious psychology and its connected subconscious psyche.  It's all part of mental reality and how it works to organize experience from our own psyche. Irene and I were talking about this when someone posted a link, in the Love After Life group, about a movie coming out where a youn...

Had a good morning, nice session, then I started getting weird about the time I was going to drive into town to get some chores done.  On the way into town I just went off in an angry tirade about being weak and sad.  Nothing like going for an angry tirade drive where you can just scream and shout to your heart's content and don't have to worry about anyone overhearing you.   In a nutshell, I’m just over it already.  This is not who first met Irene; this is not who she fell in love with.  This weak, sad guy is not the man Irene deserves.  I’m sick of so many thoughts and feelings running through my head and heart that are not mine. Throughout our life together we both had to become different people in order to cope with what was going on. We had to adjust our psychology and habits.  There’s nothing wrong with that – it’s a good thing to be able to adjust in order to be able to develop our relationship with regards to changing conditions, event...