Friday, June 9, 2017 Overthinking Everything, Part 2

Woke up feeling good, had a great 15 minute session.  I'm feeling really positive that this new session technique lets me contact Irene very intimately any time I want or need and blow out all fear, sadness, pain, doubt or negativity that might be creeping in on me and put my mind and heart in a good place for a very good duration.  I can also repeat the new mantra words any time I start sensing any negativity creeping in or just when I want to feel closer to her.

I had to do 2 more sessions as I found myself sliding down, and while those sessions “normalized” me and I didn’t slide down into a grief session, they didn’t seem as powerful as the first times.

  

However, Irene let me know that this was like other things in our life, where all I have to do is not stop us from going forward, but just do what I can to stay on the train and keep going forward as best I can.  I know that the really good state of existence/experience for me here can happen at any time – I don’t “make” it happen and cannot “force” it to happen, just like I could not make or force any of the blessings in our life and the satisfaction and beauty of our relationship when she was physical to occur.  It’s about going forward in faith and love.  I actually felt really good in the hour or so before I fell asleep.