Love After Life

Wow! I woke up today and feel so much better than I have been feeling.  I think I'm shaking my bad attitude cold bug. I can still feel the physical effects but psychologically and emotionally I feel absolutely great!  I feel so connected to Irene this morning it's totally energized me and is keeping a big stupid smile on my face. I finished my will today, just have to take it into town to get it signed, witnessed and notarized.  As soon as I get that done I'll feel totally ready to leave this world when the time comes.  There's still a lot of stuff I can do in the meantime, but that will be taking care of my only real concern. I recently joined a new Facebook group -  Forever In Love with Our Partners who have Crossed Over .  It's a group with similar beliefs and views concerning soulmates and the afterlife.  Today I posted the following: "Reading some other posts in other groups, it occurs to me that we in this group have a perspective that is ve...

Wow, has it been five days since I last posted? Well, it's no wonder - I've got a ton of work I've been having to do in my regular job, plus I've had a lot of family over.  In addition to all that, I feel like I've been fighting a bug for several days. Usually when I get catch a cold it affects me mentally more than anything else and I have a really bad attitude for a few days, as well as a very deep voice. I think that's what has been going on because it's about the time of year I usually have one of these episodes and it usually lasts a few days. It's kind of extra special to me that in the middle of this downtime, with me barely having any time to do any meditating  and not feeling particularly "spiritual" at all, that Irene came to me in another dream last night!  A very fun, flirty dream and I could fully see her face this time. This dream occurred, like the prior ones and my OOBE, after I had woken up in the middle of the night, sta...

Talk about a busy few days!  Family has been staying here from out of town and a Thanksgiving dinner was moved here from my son's house due to an electrical outage.  I've not only had a house  full of people for several days, I've also been on the telephone a lot and went out with the kids to watch some movies, so you can imagine my normal routine has been totally upended. Still, I managed to get in at least one meditation and do my prayers every day, and I was able to steal away as often as I wished to have some private time with Irene.  Our mental connection and communication was excellent.  My emotions were not a problem at all. To be honest, Irene and I never made a big deal of the holidays.  That just wasn't our thing, so my reaction to the holidays probably wasn't going to be as problematic anyway.  I know that others who  have deep connections who have crossed over have very serious issues during the holidays.  Our biggest day ...

A Powerful Intention This morning the first thing I did was an "intention-setting" meditation, which is my usual routine now.  When I do this I am searching for imagery and scenes in my mind that I wish to exist in and which generate an emotional connection and joyful reaction in me.  After sitting down cross-legged on my couch, I did my usual pre-meditation prayer of safety and guidance, immediately getting that familiar buzz which indicates that I'm tuned into "our" frequency. Very quickly after that, a scene popped into my mind of the two of us (Irene and I) sitting on white, wooden  lounge chairs on a deck overlooking the beach and ocean.  Our feet were propped up on the white deck rail and we both had a cup of coffee and we were smoking. We were dressed just like we were at our wedding - we didn't wear formal clothes at our wedding, which was held in our home at the time.  We were laughing about something and had great big smiles on our faces, lookin...

Talk about a lot of conspiring events - work, family, bad atmosphere, and so much to do today has left my brain completely fried.  No grief, however, and only a little sadness of the pity party variety.  I feel so exhausted and overwhelmed, but again - no crash.  That's really the big point - I can experience a day like today and not fall back into grief makes me feel like it has really been defeated. I wrote the above yesterday, but had a brain that was far too fried to finish.  I went to sleep last night totally overwhelmed with work and family stuff and woke up feeling pretty much the same.  At some point I asked my spirit team for some help overcoming my anxiety and the following immediately popped into my mind: "It's nothing compared to what you went through when Irene died." That thought, that "meme", washed over me like a solvent, dissolving my anxiety and making me laugh. Then this popped in my head, "We've been through worse than this, ...

This weekend I spent a lot of time finishing up the editing on  my book, "Love After Life".  It should be posted here both on "The Book" tab and in links to Google Doc and PDF versions sometime this week.  Right now I'm putting in links to blog posts that correspond to various things I mention in the text of the book so that readers can see the full context of what I was going through at the time if they want. Yes, I realize I'm not posting every day like I used to.  Rest assured that I'm not losing interest in keeping the blog current, but rather this new schedule represents a new stage of the development of my relationship with Irene.  Some of my desire and even need to write here every day was out of a kind of fear that if I did not do so my attention to our efforts and dedication to her would begin to wane.  She is so woven into my daily life and thoughts, and my sense of connection to her is so good and fulfilling, that I no longer worry about tha...

My meditations lately have been so good - deep connection with Irene and an electric sensation like I'm about to leave my body.  The atmosphere outside has stayed consistent for a few days, which I think has been instrumental in letting me get back into a routine.  My overall state of happiness and sense of wholeness with Irene has increased to a very enjoyable level.  I've been able to invest more time into the AREI zoom room groups and that's been pretty rewarding, which is something of a surprise.  Normally I don't like being around other people because I pick up their vibes and then I end up having to recuperate, but I might have actually found people with vibes that actually help me rather than hinder. Imagine that! It might take some effort to get out of the habit of finding reasons not to be around people. To take that challenge head on, I've sort of appointed myself as the Zoom Room greeter.  I stay logged in the room to help those why are new to it. ...

My second meditation yesterday was focused on simply allowing, accepting and receiving whatever information - or no information - came my way during that time.  I try to keep my mind relatively clear and not intend or deliberately imagine.  At one point an HE (hypnagogic experience) played out where Irene and I were laying on what was like a clear ground of glass and looking down at me as I did something in an office somewhere - it looked like I was in a police station of some sort looking for someone who worked there. As the day went on I felt very confident and realized that I had made the decision to become even more fully committed to our adventure - the adventure of me trying to have a more complete experience with her.  Not because I needed it due to sorrow or grief, but rather because I have discovered it is my "calling" - I find joy, excitement and enthusiasm in this pursuit. It makes me both want to get out of bed in the morning and go to bed at night. While ...

I set out this morning to better organize my process - yes, even though I've talked before about not setting up a rigid schedule that could lead to frustration and guilt, I feel like I've gone beyond feeling those things due to not adhering to a schedule or due to unmet expectations of myself.  If I cannot meditate at times or things don't progress as fast as I want, I get over that fast enough, but there is a process by which that occurs and I really need to try to adhere to it as much as possible. First, when I get up in the morning, it's important that I start empowering and invoking our home frequency right off the bat, no matter how I feel when I get up.  If I feel ambivalent, I need to soldier through it and do my greetings, feel appreciation, ask for help, say my prayers and do my intention-setting meditation.  I can't let feelings and emotions of unwanted frequencies set the tone for my day and guide my decisions about what to do; it's up to me to cont...

That information from yesterday and the atmosphere doing tricks here has me out of sorts.  I feel like my frequency is just a bit off.  Maybe things are sorting themselves out.  I don't really even like to think about that information because it just bogs my head down with trying to organize what it al means. Today I focused on more simple lines of thought - like trust the process.  Meditate, pray, intend, affirm, do things that need to be done, let god and the universe and my soul team take care of everything else.  My job is to focus on what I want, do what that intention brings me to do, and don't get in the way or sabotage the process.  Sometimes the best thing to do is just concentrate on the basics and your job and let everything else sort itself out. That in itself can be a difficult task.  Some days just need to be gotten through without beating myself up as if there was more I could do.  Time to read my reminders and find new pins...

Sort of a regular day today, although I've had a bit of a negative attitude.  I asked Irene if she was interested in doing EVP, or Electronic Voice Phenomena techniques (recording "white noise" for transdimensional communication).  I got a couple of iffy signals back.  I decided that it wasn't a big deal to try since I can upload recordings from my iPad directly to google drive and then they'll be available on my drive to open with Adobe Audition.  I'm kind of ambivalent about it today.  On the one hand, I'm pretty happy about where we're at, relationship-wise and with my own emotional state, and I'm resistant to doing something that might set me back. On the other hand, I'm really more interested in getting to a point where we can have a full-blown visitation.  I'm not that enthused about poring over hours of recordings to see if I can find Irene's voice, although I must say that would be pretty cool.  The only thing is, I know we ha...

Yesterday I had a little trouble with my mental discipline - ate a little too much, smoked more than two cigarettes - but after a good talk with Irene last night I'm back on track today.  I had another blissful meditation this morning, and it's like getting a concentrated shot of Irene for the day.  It's really incredible.  Had another one just like it in the early afternoon and had to lay down and attempt to astral project due to the totally buzzed feeling.  I didn't astral project, but I did have a good nap. I was surprised by how much I was able to work today.  I remember that before when I went even an hour concentrating on work I'd find myself starting to panic because I hadn't been thinking of Irene. Today I was able to put quite a bit of continuous time at a sitting between walking the dogs and doing my light exercises.  One of my exercises is walking up and down our stairs five round-trips and I started imagining each trip up as a trip up to the ...

Update 7-22-2018 On Friday, July 20, 2018, we achieved our goal of having a completely real astral visitation with each other. It was amazing!  I never lost consciousness transitioning from this dimension to the one where we are together.  The conversation we were having telepathically in our bed here flowed seamlessly into my actually being in a room, sitting next to her, having that same conversation with her.  Although I was conscious when my experiential scene flipped from lying in bed to sitting on a couch in a room next her, it took me several minutes to become fully cognizant of the fact that I was actually feeling the couch, actually seeing her and everything else (including my own hands when I gestured while talking).  I could hear her voice and mine. You can read more about it starting here. (Updated 12-18-2017 - WJM - New Sequential Post Archive Started & Book Now Available on Amazon) I have posted my book,  "Love After Life," so it can...

Yesterday I went out around 5:30 to smoke my 2nd cigarette of the day.  The air was really warm - I think it got up around 95 during the day, but weirdly I actually enjoyed it.  Maybe it's because I have the AC in the house set at 70.  Usually, though, that just makes me dislike the warm air all the more. It felt great, though.  I lit up and started talking to Irene and when I drew in the last of the cigarette, I realized something about restraint and moderation ; controlling how much you do a thing has a great impact on how much you can enjoy it and how that enjoyment is incorporated into your life.  I used to smoke many years ago and gave it up entirely until a couple of weeks ago when I started and then began enforcing a two-a-day strict limit.  Back then, I was a chain smoker, smoking sometimes up to four packs of ultra-lights  a day .  I got into the habit of smoking while I worked on the computer and then while I played games on the comput...

I got some more validations while reading Understanding Life After Death   about things I've already thought. One was so interesting - the third party view.  It was also interesting because my sister had just sent me an email asking me to clarify what I meant by "third person view" in this blog. I used to try to coerce my "envisioned" viewpoint into a first-person view but then decided I'd just allow myself that third-person view without judging it as less realistic or inferior to having a first-person view in such scenarios.  In that book the author shares some insight he gathered from the Leslie Flint recordings and an almost throwaway bit of information was that we could move our attention around in a "third party" way, meaning we didn't need mirrors to see ourselves and didn't need to go outside to see the flowers or the sunset if we didn't want to.  We could just move our observational attention around, meaning I could view Irene...

Another great day yesterday, another great morning this morning!  I sat on the back patio this morning and said my prayers, smoked my morning cigarette and talked with irene.  A few short weeks ago I would have thought this kind of easy, normal feeling would either not be possible or would be somehow hurtful or disappointing, but I see that was only my own fear and insecurity.  Irene and I had a very fun, easy relationship while she was here - no drama, no need to make big issues out of anything. Well, that's where we had been for the last ten or twelve years. Before that there was the usual stuff most couple go through, especially when pre-existing children were involved. There's no reason this new form of our relationship cannot be as fun, easy and fulfilling, without me cooking it up with drama or tears or insecurities.  There is a very special, very warm and intimate quality to being able to speak to each other mentally that is an intensification of the connect...

The subtitle on this blog reads [used to read, now I've changed it - WJM] : "My attempt to develop a fulfilling relationship with my soul-mate after she passed from the physical."  Amazingly, I now have a fulfilling relationship with Irene even though she has crossed over. That relationship is as good now, if not even better, than it was before.  I say "even better" because we have seen it not only survive but grow stronger because of this challenge.  Sometime during the day yesterday I realized that I have actually accomplished what I originally set out to do, but I have already expanded the scope of what I wish to achieve if possible. Originally, I was only keeping track of all the signs and messages that Irene was sending.  When I realized the only way I would be able to survive her passing was if I could keep our relationship and contact alive, I turned that into a journal, mainly to remind myself during dark times that there were times when I did feel who...

Woke up around four in the morning and I feel like my new "normal" has been stepped up a notch. I feel great - connected to Irene, enthusiastic, happy, focused, complete.  It feels like the mental discipline technique I've been employing lately has put me in a whole new frequency.  I did my prayers, meditation, talked with Irene, then went in my office and worked on my book, picking up where I left off last night, then started doing my regular job work. Meditation was great. Had an immediate vibrational connection to irene and felt that electric body sensation throughout.  It was as if I could feel non-articulated information being fed into me that later turned into ideas and stuff to write about in the book.  I got a lot of good information from the Facebook groups and Cyrus Kirkpatrick's book, Understanding Life After Death .  Cyrus runs one of the groups I'm in, Afterlife Topics.   Such books and groups are really good for maintaining one's "transdim...

To continue from yesterday, I don't know what it was but it felt like I was coming down with something.  I continued to feel worse until Wheel of Fortune came on and, in my mind, Irene was there with me as usual and I completely calmed down and felt much better mentally and emotionally, even though I still felt a little under the weather.  I had to keep reminding myself to stop thinking, to stop trying to figure it out, that when I felt like that it's time to just get through and let time pass until I feel better.  I told myself I'd feel fine in the morning - and I do! It's so baffling how, when I feel that way, all these strange and unsettling thoughts and mental/emotional sensations manifest.  Also, my ability to even think about those thoughts and feelings rationally or objectively becomes impaired and I end up fueling them somehow.  This morning I'm thinking that "trying to figure something out", which used to be my "go-to" process, is ac...

Today hasn't been a great day, but it has been a "good enough" day.  I'm longing for the heavenly version of us off and on.  Had a good prayer as usual and the meditations have been really good today (lots of "connection vibration" and deep relaxation), but for whatever reasons I've got some sorrowful longing going on - nothing dramatic, but enough to bring a few tears to my eyes. I started wondering what the issue was, then thought of my new acronym - LIFT, which stands for Love, Intention, Intuition, Faith and Trust.  Focus my intentions on what I Love ; let Intuition direct me and sort through my options; have Faith in the process; Trust the plan, God, Irene and those working on my behalf. It reminds me that I don't have to figure this stuff out. I don't have to dig deep and find out if I have unexamined pains, guilt or regret.  I don't have to figure out what I have to do next.  I don't have to figure out how to astral project or ...