Tuesday, July 4, 2017 My Routine

Today was a relatively normal, average day. Had a good session morning session and two more meditation only sessions – that’s my new pattern.  Prayers and spirit-talk once, then meditation of one sort or another about 3 times a day for 30-40 minutes each time. I have also continued with my circulation yoga and light exercise and have stayed on my new diet for quite some time – lost several lbs the past couple of weeks.  Mostly I just eat stir fry, rice, tofu and White Mountain Foods yogurt, plus I drink juice and coffee. I make sure and get some sun every day (Irene let me know that is important).

Had a couple of moments of sadness but nothing too horrible.  It’s so weird that I can get such transformational knowledge one day (or one minute) and the next I can be sad. Or, I can have a phenomenal “touch” experience and be so happy and feel like nothing could possibly ever make me sad again, only to succumb a short while later.  How can I possibly experience sadness about Irene knowing what I know about us, about her, about our home and our real life? It’s so bizarre.  I guess it’s like I’ve been saying – you can’t stop from experiencing the withdrawal spasms no matter how much spiritual knowledge you have – it’s a purely physical reaction that also affects your brain’s psychology.  It may never go away.  There's still a clutch in my throat at times that feels like I'm about to panic, but it doesn't happen. Is something blocking it out for the time being?  I don't know.

It was such a good feeling that something I posted in the Zammit Afterlife group seemed to resonate with and even help others.