Love After Life

I had another dream of Irene last night.  It was a pretty weird dream with all kinds of crazy stuff going on, but I woke up very excited and happy that I got to see her again.  Having family over for several days through Christmas and having a heavy workload I had to concentrate on didn't affect me very much emotionally, although I did feel a bit less connected to Irene for the duration.  I started to remedy that yesterday by meditating three times and going to bed early, talking to her as I fell asleep.  Lately, with the kids here, I usually fall asleep as soon as I lay down.  The meditations were good, deep and had great connection to her; the porch and evening talks were very nice, and the dream was really interesting and just topped everything off. It's easy to get into a distraction mode - watching too much TV, reading too much on the internet, etc.  I find it bizarre that I would revert to habits of distraction when I enjoy my connection to Ire...

Wow, has it been five days since I last posted? Well, it's no wonder - I've got a ton of work I've been having to do in my regular job, plus I've had a lot of family over.  In addition to all that, I feel like I've been fighting a bug for several days. Usually when I get catch a cold it affects me mentally more than anything else and I have a really bad attitude for a few days, as well as a very deep voice. I think that's what has been going on because it's about the time of year I usually have one of these episodes and it usually lasts a few days. It's kind of extra special to me that in the middle of this downtime, with me barely having any time to do any meditating  and not feeling particularly "spiritual" at all, that Irene came to me in another dream last night!  A very fun, flirty dream and I could fully see her face this time. This dream occurred, like the prior ones and my OOBE, after I had woken up in the middle of the night, sta...

Sunday I got to meet several people associated with AREI and in that Facebook group in an international video conference.  What a surreal experience. I'm still trying to re-orient myself after that and another busy weekend with the family.  I'm going to be learning how to be a facilitator for such groups in the future.  Right now they are regularly scheduled for early Sunday mornings my time.  It's really interesting to have conversations with completely sincere people about things like mediumship, the afterlife, NDEs and OOBEs ... it normalizes a whole set of concepts and experiences in a way that's difficult to achieve without that kind of group-based psychological and emotional support. This morning I had a dream of Irene. It was only a few moments, but I did get to hear her voice and see her pretty clearly.  She looked to be 35-40.  I was so happy when I woke up!  It seems that adding the HE practice to my daily process, and establishing that fir...

Another good morning ... feeling great, good prayer and mediation.  I've been affirming that it's okay to feel good, that it's good for both of us and our connection.  Finished up stage three of the self-guided exercises from AREI website and filled out their journal. Later in the evening, after walking the dogs, I started feeling something different - not quite sure what it is.  I think I may be feeling Irene's presence without the heart clutch sensation.  It's very subtle, like a change in the atmosphere for the better, very difficult to quantify.  Thinking about it, I haven't felt the heart clutch today.  My happiness seems fuller somehow. More tomorrow, dead tired right now.

I walked the dogs earlier and while outside I got to thinking about some of the AREI information and how it corresponded to some things I had been thinking about; about how I needed to learn to beef up my ability to trust, have faith, and use my intuition.  This is something Irene kept trying to tell me our entire time together here, and something we experienced over and over - to pray, intend, and affirm, but then to trust that the things that unfolded for us were leading us where we wanted to go even though it may not seem like it. Our role in the unfolding is simply to walk down the path as it does so, not to try to make things happen the way we think they ought, or to try to hurry it up - no matter how impatient we may be. One of my issues has always been over-thinking things - as I've talked about in the past in this blog.  I think it's probably pretty hard for Irene or my spirit guides to put images or thoughts in my head when I keep it occupied all the time. I realize...

I'm remembering more of what I dream now, which is part of my intentions.  The dream I had before waking this morning didn't mean anything to me, but at least I did remember some of it when I woke. I'm in the process of doing the AREI Self-Guided Afterlife Connection to see if I can get anything out of it, and also it's another thing I can do to "make real" my intention of increasing my communication with Irene.  This morning I read some materials in that process that confirmed several things I had come to believe about what I've been experiencing. First and foremost, it confirmed the difference between things I deliberately imagine and things that just pop into my mind on their own. There is a big difference in those experiences, and the material confirms that the experiences I have of things just popping into my head does indeed come from outside of my imagination. These are things Irene, other loved ones or my spirit guides put into my head for m...