Love After Life

This post is really more for myself than anything else, just to come back and be able to read at some point. I am incredibly happy, satisfied and excited.  When I think about what I was like just a year or so ago, I feel like we've achieved the impossible.  I'm perfectly content, I feel completely whole, our transdimensional relationship feels completely natural.  It all feels so normal now - our talks, our visualizations, her signs, the synchronicities - it literally feels like we are together again, physiologically, mentally, emotionally.  It feels better now than when she was here physically because I know what the future holds for us.  I know what we (Irene and I) are doing here and why we are doing it.  I'm totally satisfied intellectually about the nature of our existence and relationship, why we took on this Earthly experience, and why we may do so again in the future.  My heart is full.  I'm happy.  I am in daily, amazed appreciation ...

Tuesday the weather was wet, cold and humid.  My mind was pretty chaotic all day dealing with a lot of work and just not feeling that great in body, mind or spirit.  I had to fight with myself to get any work done at all.  I distracted myself by watching TV and then felt bad about wasting time.  It wasn't sadness, I just felt disconnected from our source frequency which keeps me calm and happy.  I was worried about too many things and felt sort of in a paralyzed state. Yesterday, though, I woke up and felt absolutely great, and it lasted all day long.  I was able to work all day without feeling frustrated or rushed.  The weather had changed and it was a perfectly clear, beautiful sunny day. I was able to sit in the swing under the magnolia tree and talk with Irene a couple of times and felt amazing connection to her. There's a feeling I get at times like this; an indescribable emotion I've talked about it before in this blog.  It's part love, part...

A Powerful Intention This morning the first thing I did was an "intention-setting" meditation, which is my usual routine now.  When I do this I am searching for imagery and scenes in my mind that I wish to exist in and which generate an emotional connection and joyful reaction in me.  After sitting down cross-legged on my couch, I did my usual pre-meditation prayer of safety and guidance, immediately getting that familiar buzz which indicates that I'm tuned into "our" frequency. Very quickly after that, a scene popped into my mind of the two of us (Irene and I) sitting on white, wooden  lounge chairs on a deck overlooking the beach and ocean.  Our feet were propped up on the white deck rail and we both had a cup of coffee and we were smoking. We were dressed just like we were at our wedding - we didn't wear formal clothes at our wedding, which was held in our home at the time.  We were laughing about something and had great big smiles on our faces, lookin...

Reading books and watching materials about the afterlife, it's easy to get into a state of confusion and have doubts because there are so many different descriptions written with a sense of authority.  These varying descriptions, though, only seem to contradict each other because we've come to think of "the afterlife" as a single, uniform place, with a uniform set of rules and structures, that everyone goes to and through regardless of their beliefs here. It is my view, though, that all those descriptions are accurate of different regions or dimensions we can see, go to and live in after leaving this world. Some are more non-physical; some are very difficult to relate to at all; some are a lot like Earth in many ways.  There may be an afterlife region that corresponds to each and every description offered by the various religions and spiritualities that ever existed. It is also my view that there are many Earth dimensions, or Earth frequencies, if you like.  How y...

Yesterday, I was looking at a picture of myself and Irene in a small frame on a dresser in the bedroom.  The top of my head was cut off to fit the picture in the frame but I really liked it because she has such a sweet smile in the picture.  I found myself wishing I had that picture but without it being so tightly cropped. When I came into the office I felt a longing to look through some of our pictures that I have collected of the family that I haven't yet scanned in - there's quite a pile. I reached in to a bunch that were face down, picked them up and turned them over.  There was the exact same picture at the top of 10 or 12 pictures I had picked up, except it wasn't tightly cropped - it was the full picture. That was amazing considering we have virtually no duplicates of any pictures and that was a stack of about 70 pictures.  When Irene cropped a picture to put in a small frame, it was usually the only copy we had of that picture. It wasn't until the past coup...

Woke up feeling great!! What a great, great day yesterday!!! I’m still charged up and so blown away by that video.  I definitely feel like I’m on the exact right track.  I do a 30 minute session after morning prayers, get up and go to work in my office, and for the next few hours I’m in bliss – I can feel Irene in my heart and head. I’m beyond happy, I’m goofy happy, complete and joyful, we’re cracking jokes and talking about stuff we’ve been through and are going through, we talk about yesterday. I play the “I can’t wait” song and it repeats by itself (even though my player is set to “randomize”).  I stop it after the second play and applaud her for making it repeat. We have some more fun and I play the song again, but it doesn’t repeat, an Exile song starts up. Now, Irene is a big Exile fan but I’m not. I think about stopping it but tell her “okay, but just this one, I’m not going to sit through an album’s worth of Exile songs.  Anyway the guy uses the phras...

Had some trouble in the evening yesterday, but by the time I went to sleep I was pretty good and fell right to sleep.  Woke up this morning and felt sad (about a 4 on the scale where 5 is normal). Was drinking some coffee with Irene and watching a little TV before our morning session when she pulled another commercial switch, this time during live TV.  I was watching Catfish (one of our favorite shows) and couldn’t jump forward because it wasn’t a recorded show, and just as it ended I realized I had been watching that Honda “perfect Accord” commercial again, and I wanted to make sure it was that commercial, flipped back 10 seconds and it was an entirely different commercial. I couldn’t get that perfect accord commercial to play again.  The effect it had on me was an amazing transformation, very, very good emotionally. I am so happy now and feel so complete and connected to Irene. I’ve decided that I must be what is called “clairsentient”, in the sense that I can ...

It was a long day yesterday, Robert, Gerra and Micheal pulled boxes out of the attic and were going through it upstairs.  I had asked them to do it upstairs because I didn't want to have an adverse reaction like the last time. They found Irene’s old journal that has entries in it from a month before we met to 2-3 months after we met.  Reading that was such a beautiful experience, I think Irene planned this out. To see what she said in her own private thoughts about me and what was going on just before and then when we first met wasn’t new – she had told me all this before – but it just made it so real and brought me back to those first days of our time together her.  I got my old journal out to compare the two. When we met it was unlike anything either of us had ever experienced – it was like we were waiting for each other and longing for each other our whole lives without even realizing it.  There was a empty, sad, lonely place in each of us no matter who w...