Love After Life

I just thought I'd make a post about the basic afterlife information I've accumulated. Most people when they cross over find themselves in a world much like ours. It feels every bit as physical, except is is much more responsive to thought. People that OOBE and NDE, and information via credible mediums say  it is a hyper-real physical experience - it feels even more real than this world. Unless we desire to appear otherwise, most find themselves at the peak of physical health and youth. We are the same people there as here - same desires, same personality, same sense of humor, etc., and some have to undergo a healing and/or therapy time to deal with the mental effects/trauma/disorders that we can carry over with us. Others who have deeply entrenched beliefs often find themselves experiencing the manifestation of those beliefs because of the afterlife responsiveness to mind. We are capable of doing all the things there, physically, that we do here. From what I've read and ex...

Lately I've been experiencing a deeper kind of mental intimacy with Irene during meditation and when I start falling off to sleep.  It's hard to explain - and maybe a little embarrassing considering family and friends read this blog. When she was alive, when Irene and I would kiss (among other things), all of my attention and hers was on that kiss, or that touch, etc., on our connection, in the moment.  It was like being one being in a timeless state of a kind of bliss where nothing else existed.  Lately though when I imagine and visualize holding her, or kissing her, it's like hearing each other's thoughts and feeling each other's feelings at the same time that we are experiencing the physical contact.  It's like literally being in each other's head and experiencing what the other person is experiencing, a kind of union beyond any connection we had before. Last night I fell asleep in that kind of state with her and I had two fairly intimate, very beauti...

I got some more validations while reading Understanding Life After Death   about things I've already thought. One was so interesting - the third party view.  It was also interesting because my sister had just sent me an email asking me to clarify what I meant by "third person view" in this blog. I used to try to coerce my "envisioned" viewpoint into a first-person view but then decided I'd just allow myself that third-person view without judging it as less realistic or inferior to having a first-person view in such scenarios.  In that book the author shares some insight he gathered from the Leslie Flint recordings and an almost throwaway bit of information was that we could move our attention around in a "third party" way, meaning we didn't need mirrors to see ourselves and didn't need to go outside to see the flowers or the sunset if we didn't want to.  We could just move our observational attention around, meaning I could view Irene...

OMG I just had the most amazing experience!!!  I woke up feeling very good, did my morning prayer/talk with Irene/meditation and  during the meditation all of a sudden I was in this sunny, beautiful field with Irene and she was so beautiful, smiling so big, arms spread wide, I was just overwhelmed with that primordial sense of connection, love and happiness – tears were streaming down, just thinking of it now fills me with wholeness and happiness. It was only a few seconds but it was so clear and powerful.  I continued my meditation for a few minutes and then I felt Irene radiate from inside me with love and connection and happiness and joy so powerful I thought I would explode. I’ve never felt anything like it in my life. It was like an explosion of intimacy, wholeness and joy.  So amazing there are no words!!! 2 nd pray/talk/meditate session today, real good session, nothing spectacular at the time but I felt I got some good work done in raising my vibrationa...

Woke up feeling “normal”.  Talked to Irene like normal. Did normal things. Experienced a very sweet, warm sensation of love from her.  I remind myself that “normal” is okay, it’s good, it’s how we spent most of our time together – in a state of “normal” – feeling comforted by each other’s presence, being able to do daily things like work and household chores, then when we needed or wanted spike up into a more intense exchange of that love/intimacy in various ways.  This morning I feel very confident, very much in love with her, very strong that she is always here with me.  It’s really amazing and wonderful.  I understand I have to set my rational, analytical mind aside and just exist in faith, love, and the knowing I have that she is actually in me, a part of me. I have to make a note – I just went into the kitchen and was making more coffee when Irene gave me such a warm, loving, euphoric sense of union with her that it was unbelievable.  She’s telli...

I woke up feeling good, spent time talking with Irene, started feeling great again.  Texted Gerra about the commercial, she was right at that time trying to find her lost keys so she could get a new car, asking Irene to help her find the keys.  As we were texting her friend comes and picks her up and her keys are in her friend’s car! Also, walked into my office (not for the first time this morning) and an orange box I hadn’t noticed before was on top of my plastic shelves. Had a bunch of needlepoint stuff Gerra had apparently missed so I think Irene wants to make sure Gerra gets that box. Found a great pair of needle nose pliers in that box I plan on keeping, though! I was telling Ivori about all this and the big black and yellow butterfly I saw in the back yard yesterday, matching the small one she made a video while working on the pyramid and the giant one Freya took a picture of had that landed on Victor and just sat there while they all looked at it.  Ivori t...

I woke up feeling pretty good.  Working on accepting the “normal” feeling, and being more accepting of my mental projections of Irene, even though it’s not of the same quality as my other experiences which seem to be much more real.  I’m trying to understand some of these emotions I experience as love for Irene and not pain, and that “missing her” sensation is an expression of my love for her and not something I want to avoid, but embrace and experience in a positive way.  I have to pray daily, sometimes several times a day, for strength, grace, comfort and understanding.  I had a really good session before Wheel of Fortune (which I always watch with her) where I was able to create a framework of understanding about our relationship. There is the daily, “normal” interaction where I don’t usually have as pronounced a sense of connection, but I still talk to her as if she’s with me and envision her at times with me.  This needs to be an entirely “no pressure”...