Thursday May 25, 2017 We Already Won

Woke up feeling “normal”.  Talked to Irene like normal. Did normal things. Experienced a very sweet, warm sensation of love from her.  I remind myself that “normal” is okay, it’s good, it’s how we spent most of our time together – in a state of “normal” – feeling comforted by each other’s presence, being able to do daily things like work and household chores, then when we needed or wanted spike up into a more intense exchange of that love/intimacy in various ways.  This morning I feel very confident, very much in love with her, very strong that she is always here with me.  It’s really amazing and wonderful.  I understand I have to set my rational, analytical mind aside and just exist in faith, love, and the knowing I have that she is actually in me, a part of me.

I have to make a note – I just went into the kitchen and was making more coffee when Irene gave me such a warm, loving, euphoric sense of union with her that it was unbelievable.  She’s telling me that our union doesn’t have to be hard, that I don’t have to do anything special like meditation practices – just be open-hearted, have faith, live in my love for her and gratitude to god, think of our life together with joy, and realize we are still together and are still creating our present and future together.  Set aside all thoughts of figuring things out or analyzing what is going on – just faith and love. We have already won - in the end, we will be together no matter what.