Love After Life

Getting back into my routine is proving harder than I thought, with a lot of visits from family and errands that have to be run popping up.  The good news is that even though I've only been able to meditate one or two times a day, it hasn't affected me negatively in any overall sense.  That's really an amazing accomplishment that needs to be recognized and appreciated because it is so easy to take "normalcy" for granted.  It wasn't that long ago I was struggling with the very idea of feeling normal and was fighting back pain and anxiety every day. Looking back at those times when I was in the grip of grief and extreme sorrow, I could not even begin to believe that my current state was something I would achieve before the end of the year, if ever.  It didn't seem possible, and I wouldn't have even been able to imagine it had I not been given those two weeks of grace after Irene crossed over.  Here I am, though, not only feeling good, connected, whole...

 I feel like I've made such a big psychological and emotional transition from just a few short months ago.  My new habit of taking multiple naps during the day is working out tremendously and has virtually eliminated my sense of mental fatigue and confusion.  Meditation lately has gotten to be so deep and so enjoyable it's difficult to drag myself out of it. My connection to Irene is so good that there is very, very little sadness that crops up, and when it does I feel like I can focus on feeling happy and appreciative and change my frequency fairly easily.  When I talk to her out loud or in my mind it feels very good and very natural. This concept of "tuning into frequencies" is turning out to be very useful. It provides a really good tool for organizing experience and understanding what to do going forward.  I completely understand now my wife's habit of accumulating things that made her happy - like colorful flip-flops and light-up shoes, or little seahorse...

Yesterday I had a little trouble with my mental discipline - ate a little too much, smoked more than two cigarettes - but after a good talk with Irene last night I'm back on track today.  I had another blissful meditation this morning, and it's like getting a concentrated shot of Irene for the day.  It's really incredible.  Had another one just like it in the early afternoon and had to lay down and attempt to astral project due to the totally buzzed feeling.  I didn't astral project, but I did have a good nap. I was surprised by how much I was able to work today.  I remember that before when I went even an hour concentrating on work I'd find myself starting to panic because I hadn't been thinking of Irene. Today I was able to put quite a bit of continuous time at a sitting between walking the dogs and doing my light exercises.  One of my exercises is walking up and down our stairs five round-trips and I started imagining each trip up as a trip up to the ...

The subtitle on this blog reads [used to read, now I've changed it - WJM] : "My attempt to develop a fulfilling relationship with my soul-mate after she passed from the physical."  Amazingly, I now have a fulfilling relationship with Irene even though she has crossed over. That relationship is as good now, if not even better, than it was before.  I say "even better" because we have seen it not only survive but grow stronger because of this challenge.  Sometime during the day yesterday I realized that I have actually accomplished what I originally set out to do, but I have already expanded the scope of what I wish to achieve if possible. Originally, I was only keeping track of all the signs and messages that Irene was sending.  When I realized the only way I would be able to survive her passing was if I could keep our relationship and contact alive, I turned that into a journal, mainly to remind myself during dark times that there were times when I did feel who...

Woke up around four in the morning and I feel like my new "normal" has been stepped up a notch. I feel great - connected to Irene, enthusiastic, happy, focused, complete.  It feels like the mental discipline technique I've been employing lately has put me in a whole new frequency.  I did my prayers, meditation, talked with Irene, then went in my office and worked on my book, picking up where I left off last night, then started doing my regular job work. Meditation was great. Had an immediate vibrational connection to irene and felt that electric body sensation throughout.  It was as if I could feel non-articulated information being fed into me that later turned into ideas and stuff to write about in the book.  I got a lot of good information from the Facebook groups and Cyrus Kirkpatrick's book, Understanding Life After Death .  Cyrus runs one of the groups I'm in, Afterlife Topics.   Such books and groups are really good for maintaining one's "transdim...

This morning I felt awful physically.  I must have had a bug or something.  Mentally I was pretty much completely apathetic.  I did my morning prayers and attempted to meditate, but couldn't do anything but think about work so I took a couple of antihistamines and went back to bed. I woke up and still didn't feel very good, so I just told myself to be disciplined, don't do anything stupid  like eat too much or start going down memory lane or smoke more than allowed.  I remembered that some days my job is to just not do anything self-destructive.  I stayed disciplined and slowly got to feeling better and better. At around noon I was able to start working and shortly thereafter was able to meditate. Irene or Thomas have been telling me to get back to writing on my book, which I've paused doing because I didn't feel well either emotionally or physically.  I've had a couple of weird encounters with a squirrel in my yard - I don't know what that's abou...