Wednesday, May 10, 2017 The Magic Flower Commercial

This is starting off to be a very bad day, prayed to have the evil or darkness that was making me doubt and fear thrown out, driven  out, prayed for God to work with Irene and I to succeed in our adventure of continuing our relationship after her passing. There is this infection of doubt and fear that it seems I can't drive out and despair is setting in again – I can't find any relief. 

Robert had said someone woke him up yesterday morning. He heard a voice say his name and when he got up Shanna was still asleep. 

The physical/emotional/psychological aspect of this is just like being sick.  I can feel a 15 second sobbing spurt coming on just like I can feel nausea just before I throw up.. It even feels much like I’m throwing up.  I can feel pain and doubt in me like disease.

To find relief I started watching Long Island Medium, one of Irene’s favorite shows, to get my mind on a more positive track.  When I started it this time it it was on a girl with breathing problems, on oxygen like Irene, getting a reading.  The messages from the other side were spot on for me and Irene.  One was that the girl’s sister was helping her get through life from heaven, and that she could hear her whenever she spoke, and was there for the events in her life.  Then Teresa asks, “How do you connect to the month of April?” as if she was talking to me.  Irene passed on April 11.  The big healthy female cardinal showed up at the bird feeder just outside my window.  It was very comforting but what was to follow was amazing.

I have continued to noticed that the only surviving flower from the celebration is this pink lily. Yes, it's still alive and looks perfect. There were several other pink lilies but all the others died several days before while this one looks as good as new.  After Teresa was finished with that girl with the breathing issue, commercials followed and for whatever reason I didn’t skip through them. With Dish and The Hopper you can skip forward 30 seconds or back 10 seconds.

As I was kind of half-watching the commercials, it dawned on me that the commercial I was watching had started with what I thought was the exact same flower as the one in the kitchen -  a pink tiger-lily. It didn’t register at first and the commercial played through a few seconds and I realized what I thought I saw and wanted to check to see if it was the same flower, so I skipped back 10 seconds and was on the prior commercial.  I waited for the flower commercial to start but instead an entirely different commercial about back pain started up after that first one!

I thought maybe I had hit the wrong button so I backed up some and watched the first commercial (a fashion commercial) through again and when it ended, the flower commercial started up.  I was totally confused. I backed it up and played it through again and once again the flower commercial had disappeared and the back pain commercial followed the first one!  I did this several times to try and figure out what was going on, but one time the flower commercial would play, then the back pain, then the flower – each time I backed it up 10 or 20 seconds to watch the end of that first commercial the following commercial would alternate between the flower and the back commercial. Each time the flower commercial played, I noticed it was preceded by a longer "in between" black time between commercials, a kind of strange pause.

I was amazed!  How in the heck could this happen?  I felt so much better, I knew that Irene was showing me she was there (cardinal, flower).  Robert showed up and I paused the recording on the fashion commercial spot and switched to live TV.  We talked for a while and then I told him this bizarre thing had happened and I wanted to see if it would happen for him or if I was just hallucinating.  I played the commercial through and the back pain commercial started up, but every time I backed up and played it that same commercial would play. I told him what happened and I was totally amazed that it stopped. 

After Robert left I asked Irene if it was just for me and if she could do it again. I had paused it on the first commercial, so I hit play AND THE FLOWER COMMERCIAL FOLLOWED THE FIRST ONE!!! And yes, it did start out with the exact same pink tiger-lily.  I literally jumped and hollered out “Holy Crap!” I was so excited and awed.  Right then I KNEW beyond any doubt that she was there making this happen.  At least for the time being, all that doubt and fear was driven out. I was so happy.  The healthy cardinal is her representation to me of her health and power and the flower/commercial event was her way of reinforcing to me that she is here and she is working with me to keep us all safe and getting us through this and keeping our relationship close and on track.  I paused on the flower commercial so I could show Robert later that it actually existed and turned to live TV.  I spent the rest of the day so happy and telling Irene how amazing she is and how lucky I am to have her.