Love After Life

The problem of social conditioning has been percolating in my mind for a several days now.  Irene and I have been discussing it.  It's been part of our Zoom group discussions the past couple of meetings and this morning I realized the importance of a certain part of my efforts with Irene to establish an enjoyable transdimensional relationship with her. One of the main aspects of my interaction with Irene since shortly after her death was thinking about and planning our future.  When you think about it, this activity is directly in contrast with the ongoing social conditioning that the dead are "gone." Our Pinterest boards about what kind of "afterlife" we want to experience, collecting imagery and ideas about where and how we want to live, what we want to do, what we want to have in our life, has been over-writing the conditioning that "she's gone" and that "we" have "ended."  Before Pinterest, we used vision boards where you...

Some days are largely blah days - not meaning I feel bad, but that I just feel utterly unmotivated to do anything. Usually a certain kind of atmospheric conditions accompanies/causes it, along with interactions with people that negatively affect my vibrational happy place.  Both were going on this past weekend, culminating in a particularly affected day yesterday. Lately I've been more focused on tuning into a fully shared experience with Irene.  I want to be able to exist in both experiences at will.  Instead of trying to do something I did not feel like doing,  I spent a lot of time doing hypnagogic exercises before and after napping, and visualizations with Irene of things I found fun and interesting.  One of Abraham-Hicks memes is that if it's not fun or exciting, if you don't feel good doing something, just take a nap. After doing just that, I woke up and turned on the TV and the channel had been changed again to one of Irene's favorite shows, Fixer Upper...

Last night I asked for help in astral projection and to have dreams I could remember and would be helpful in that attempt and the continued strengthening of the connection between me and Irene, and also to open me up to more help from my spirit team. Waking up about 3:30 a.m. or so, I stayed up a little bit deciding what to do. I had read that it's best to attempt astral projection after you wake up but before your body and mind has time to go into full wakefulness mode. So I lay back down to try to get into the "drifting off" state they described but not to actually fall asleep.  That was relatively easy since I had two cups of decaf before going to bed and I kept having to use the bathroom! Irene was in one of the dreams; someone was helping me look through a book of images and there was one with Irene, and as I looked it turned into a video of her walking through what looked like a mall with my brother, his wife and my sister. I was looking at the scene from high a...

By the time "trouble hour" rolled around yesterday (6:00 pm), I was having a comparatively down day.  I had so much going on in my head and it was like mush, and I had little mini-pity parties on and off.  I just made sure to do my regular things and, as I wrote yesterday, cleared out all the mental stuff, asked for some help from the spirit team, and let go of trying to figure things out and trust the process. I was hoping for a dream last night. I did in fact have some dreams I remember.  While they were not spectacular, they did seem to help my attitude out, because shortly after I woke up and had some coffee, I understood that I had been pressing too much.  It's a bad habit I have that goes along with thinking too much. This goes along with what I'm here to learn - to have faith and trust.  Like Irene told me some time ago, I do plenty as far as intention, affirmation, work, etc.  After that I just need to let go and let God, the universe, her and...

That information from yesterday and the atmosphere doing tricks here has me out of sorts.  I feel like my frequency is just a bit off.  Maybe things are sorting themselves out.  I don't really even like to think about that information because it just bogs my head down with trying to organize what it al means. Today I focused on more simple lines of thought - like trust the process.  Meditate, pray, intend, affirm, do things that need to be done, let god and the universe and my soul team take care of everything else.  My job is to focus on what I want, do what that intention brings me to do, and don't get in the way or sabotage the process.  Sometimes the best thing to do is just concentrate on the basics and your job and let everything else sort itself out. That in itself can be a difficult task.  Some days just need to be gotten through without beating myself up as if there was more I could do.  Time to read my reminders and find new pins...

Another really good morning so far.  Last night around 8pm I had a really, really good meditation - I felt like I could just stay in that zone for hours.  I felt like my astral body was trying to leave several times. Envisioning Irene is getting easier.  This morning I prayed while envisioning her praying with me, sitting beside me, and it was great!!  Then I had another really good meditation where I felt like I was trying to leave my body several times. The image of us being on a tropical beach or in and around the pool at our home on the other side has been popping up continuously in my mind.  Collecting images for my various afterlife Pinterest boards is giving me all sorts of deeply resonating imagery.  I think that finding things that resonate with your afterlife is a very good method of supporting intention. It's like I am building a stronger basis for the frequency at which Irene and I operate in the afterlife, drawing us closer together and keepi...

It's been a good morning. I prayed as if Irene was sitting next to me, holding my hand and praying along with me, and it was great!  Then I had a good meditation/intention/affirmation where I easily envisioned us together.  I spent time talking to Irene and my spirit team and realized I just need to keep talking to them, even if I feel like I'm whining too much, because talking out loud about all that is going on infuses my experience with a sense of reality about them, what we're doing, what we're trying to do, and the afterlife I envision. It makes it all more real for me to talk about it out loud, infusing it in all my daily activities.  That's pretty important - to make it feel real to me.  The normal physical world is unrelenting and pervasive, so I have to do whatever it takes to keep all of this fresh and infused in my consciousness and daily life. If that means acting like a crazy old man, oh well. After reading some in the Zammit's Facebook afte...