Thursday, June 22, 2017 We've Got this, Babe.

Well okay, after pain and sorrow kicked my ass all last evening and today, I’ve come to the tentative realization that I’m just going to have to endure it at times. It's just physical withdrawal.  I’ll have some good times, some bad times, and just as the bad times have lessened their degree over the past couple of months, they’ll hopefully continue to lessen, and over time I’ll be able to have more and more normal and good times and increase my connection to Irene and be able to think of her and remember her with less pain and sorrow attached. The thing is, though, now I know I will survive the bad times and I know they will in fact go away and I will in fact experience joy and happiness again.

Felt pretty good for a while this evening, had a good session, started realizing how blessed I am and how much I have to be grateful for.  I know my soulmate and spent 27 years with her in an amazing, loving relationship; I know where she is; I know she still exists and is always with me, listening to me, helping me, protecting me;  I know some of what the afterlife is like, and it’s fantastic; I have one of the greatest families ever; I have loved ones who truly care about me; I have an absolutely fantastic home and job that grant me freedom and comfort; I have, really, everything I could ever want or need. I am in a perfect place to do what I am doing now.

More than that, I have been so incredibly, unbelievably blessed to have experienced the blissful, joyous states of love and wholeness and absolute connection to Irene that I experienced for two weeks after she passed. I am also so blessed to have personally witnessed so many times where Irene showed us she is here with us.  All these experiences  have given me sturdy anchors for my faith in times where I feel what might otherwise be overwhelming sadness and grief.  Even though such heartbreaking sensations can come regardless of faith and knowledge and experience otherwise, having those anchors in my mind give me great comfort and resolute hope.  I know that over time, such feelings will subside and give way to more and more of the positive experiences, interaction and relationship with my fairy queen angel, Irene. 

We’ve got this, babe.