Love After Life

In the Book Club we've been talking about techniques for achieving astral projection through dreams and techniques for maintaining and deepening the experience, and for finding your partner there.  (The book we're getting that from is Michael Raduga's "The Phase.") Here lately, though, all I've been doing is asking for specific things in my dreams and getting them. I've had several experiences and synchronicities lately that led me to the conclusion that I should just be specific about what it is I want.  So, I wrote it down - what I want for the time being in this transdimensional state of our relationship. I've already talked to Irene in depth about what I want when I cross over.  What I wrote down was that I wanted to be able to spend at least an hour a day with her in a completely physical, 100% real environment, completely aware and able to remember it all. The first part of the dream I remember was lying in bed resting with a couple of other ...

Last night I was talking with Irene before I fell asleep and we were thinking about things she could put in dreams to help me remember, and what I wanted. I told her I really wanted to see her, and that maybe I could eat something and see what I looked like because I've never had a dream where I looked in a mirror or ate something. Just prior to that during the day, we had been talking about all the things we had come to us our physical life together here after we met - everything we ever wanted. She had a dream of meeting me the night before we met where we were standing by a black truck. When she finally got her black truck, she would joke "uh oh, I must be about to die because now I actually do have everything I ever wanted." She actually did die shortly after that, but we continue to joke about it. I recently got a bigger, new, badder truck (through no effort on my part) she absolutely loves and we planned on having on the other side. So in the dream Irene is driving...

I was talking to Irene and watching something recorded in the living room and decided to go into the den to turn the TV on early and pause it for Wheel of Fortune. I walked into the den and got the TV set and walked back into the living room and realized I hadn’t turned off the TV. The remote wasn’t on the coffee table where I usually leave it. The coffee table is clean - no clutter, only the remotes, a couple of coasters and a picture of Irene and me. This kind of thing has been happening lately where I think I’ve misplaced a remote, but it turns out I just overlooked it (or so I thought) and it’s right where I already looked – on the coffee table. I got in the habit of actually counting the remotes on the table (I have 6) and making sure I consciously examine the table to make sure I’m not just missing it. I counted them - 5 remotes. I make sure to look at each one when I count and scrutinize the entire table. I figured I must have absent-mindedly took it with me when I we...

(Originally posted in the Love After Life group on July 12; backdating it here to the same day and editing to remove names of members:) I wanted this to work at least twice before I posted it here. Two times (not on consecutive nights) I've asked Irene to show me something memorable, unique when I'm with her so that I have a better chance of remembering it when I wake up. I also told her to go ahead and wake me up after she shows me so I have a better chance of remembering. The first time was last Saturday night because a member of our Love After Life FB group had such a great astral experience after she challenged her partner to help her with an experience. It just sort of popped in my head to ask Irene to try showing me something that would stick in my head. That night she showed me a piece of art she and someone else worked on for something she was writing. It was a drawing of what looked like a unique, cute cartoon creature that was a cross between a seahorse and a s...

With the perspective of now over two years of developing and achieving a very fulfilling relationship with Irene, I have a better grip on what I was actually doing the whole time - and still am.  I understand it better because I have a better understanding of what is going on and how it all works - what the different levels of existence are and represent, how it all takes place in mind and - essentially - my external world is a reflection of my internal world. What I have been building is a fully developed  psychological  life with Irene, one where she and I share the same physical space psychologically - in other words, in our minds.  The only distinction between now and the way it was before she crossed over is that I have what is called "cognitive blindness" when it comes to interacting with her in my external-world experience.  Simply put, she doesn't register in my usual external physical senses, so we have been developing our connection and interaction...

For the past month or so I've been experimenting with the concept that psychology (including the conscious, subconscious and unconscious) = experience of reality (perceptual, sensory, cognitive, emotional, reacitive). IOW, I've let go of the ideas that there are spiritual levels, different dimensions (that coming from the guy that basically coined the term "transdimensional relationship"), different energies & frequencies, planes of existence, etc., and have proceeded from t he perspective that all of existence is right here, right now, and that it is my own psychology that determines what I perceive and experience of that infinite potential. I'm not saying those other models are not valuable and effective, so please keep that in mind. I've also started writing about how this has affected my interaction with Irene, but frankly I'm just not sure it can be effectively translated due to the limitations of language and the conceptual baggage certain term...

For the past two weeks, Irene and I have been having a great time.  I've been able to release all worry about getting better physical clarity between us.  What we have right now is so good I'm not even concerned about it enough to "work" at it, other than by doing what we are currently doing, which is 100% satisfying, enjoyable and fun.  Talking with her during the day, making food for us and watching our shows, and doing visualizations with her, now feels like a completely normal and happy  continuation of our relationship.  I no more doubt that she is participating than I doubted it before she crossed over.  My psychology and body have totally acclimated to the new situation. Reflecting on this success, which to me is rather unbelievable, I've been able to better sort out what was the most helpful other than Irene's constant, loving help and attention, as well as any other people on the other side that may have been part of that help. Probably the mos...

Yesterday, in our Love After Life group, we were supporting one of our members who was having a hard time feeling like their partner was still with them.  All of a sudden, Irene wants us to go to the Sonic and get a cheeseburger - she's very excited about it, but first she wants me to walk the dogs in the back yard. Normally we only get Sonic cheeseburgers on anniversaries and special occasions.  I usually don't go in the back with the dogs because it's a long walk and one of them is a little lame, but Irene is all excited and her mood is infectious so I get excited. I carry Marley to the back and let them do their business. Amazing how excited and happy a dog gets when he can pee and poop in a new area. Anyway, we get done and I get in the truck to head to the Sonic. I normally don't go anywhere on weekends, but we're both excited for some reason and I start it up and turn on the radio. Literally, the first words I hear from the radio - and it's not ...

A series of interesting events has led me to become fully invested in a further iteration of the "mental reality" framework that not only dispenses with so-called "spiritual levels", but also the idea of distinctly different, separated dimensions.  It is my view now that literally everything is right in front of us, around us, within us, and it is our cognitive consciousness that sorts out what we experience and what we do not. Irene is not in another dimension; she is literally right here with me. My inability to see her the way I used to is a psychological issue, nothing more. It is cognitive blindness: I cannot experience that which does not fit within this framework of my conscious psychology and its connected subconscious psyche.  It's all part of mental reality and how it works to organize experience from our own psyche. Irene and I were talking about this when someone posted a link, in the Love After Life group, about a movie coming out where a youn...

For the past few weeks Irene and I have been working on the concept of a kind of revolutionary afterlife perspective that goes hand in hand with stuff I've been channeling for decades. I believe we (Irene and I and other members of the Love After Life Facebook Zoom group) are creating, manifesting or finding a kind of reality that may be, in some sense, new - at least new for most people on Earth. We've talked about this some in the Zoom group. This new reality will hopefully move us (those who want to) out of what I consider the two main, thematic multi-dimensional realities that have to do with (1) never-ending, so-called "spiritual progress", and (2) justice/karma/reincarnation/good & evil. What Irene and I are interested in is a "happily ever after" existence mode after we are done here, one where we are not constantly told or subjected to the idea that we are not good enough or spiritual enough "as is," or that we have to endure some kind ...

I'm having great success with my technique for better remembering altered-consciousness states.  Every day I spend time reviewing all the dreams I can remember - from childhood to the present, either in meditation during the day or after I like down for the night. I pay particular attention to the dreams I've had of Irene. I started doing this about a week or week and a half ago and, other than one day, I've been remembering dreams every single day.  This is after literally years and years of virtually never remembering any dreams, now I'm remembering dreams every day.  By doing this every day I've actually started remembering dreams I had long ago forgotten.  I've started writing down not only my current dreams the day they occur, but also all the other dreams I'm remembering from my past. My intention every time I meditate, lie down to visualize or sleep is to have the best possible transdimensional visit with Irene, and to remember my altered-consciousn...

Early on, I realized something that was triggering my grief was an emotional sensation whenever I felt Irene or focused on her. There would be an instant of this really beautiful feeling, immediately followed by indescribable grief. As time went on, I learned to focus on that first feeling as the grief was taken away by other practices we've talked about and have materials on - affirmations, imagination, visualization and techniques involving meditation. As the grief subsided there were other psychological issues to deal with just because there was no information, structure out there that would have helped me understand what I was going through. I would feel panic and guilt that I was "moving on", or that I was losing connection, or that she might think I didn't love her as much, or that I was dishonoring our relationship somehow. It's not at all rational, but it's not exactly a rational experience.  We worked through those things into the confident...

I had a weird experience the past couple of days that coincided with a lot of information shared by members of the Love After Life group recently, and my own prior experiences, that has led me to adopt a slightly different paradigm about what I'm doing in working towards fuller transdimensional experiences and the goal of increased, full astral projection experiences with Irene. I'm consolidating it here in the case others find it helpful. One of the common themes of many experiences here is that they just sort of unexpectedly happen - whether we feel good at the time or bad, whether we are trying or not at the time, etc. They seem to occur without our knowledge of how to trigger them and whether or not, at the time, we are even trying to trigger them. My weird experience was this: my client called me and said that Firefox wasn't properly loading and displaying the company website I created via WIX (we transferred to WIX so that they can operate it and make changes e...

We had more light shows and other phenomena at our last Love After Life Zoom Meeting, including what appeared to be my lights going dim and bright, dim and bright for a few seconds, which I didn't see here but was visible on the screen to everyone.  A medium in the room said it was Irene. I've been getting lots of clarification and simplification material via the channeling process, apparently in preparation for the upcoming Automatic Writing Zoom Room where I'm going to be the "featured speaker," after several people requested it.  What I find is how incredibly simple the experientialism framework is, how it can take the most complex and confusing aspects of afterlife information and explain it directly and easily. The only problem isn't the complexity - it's not complex at all. The problem is that the model challenges virtually all "normal" frames of reference and the core values of most experiential frameworks.  Because of the deep nature of s...

Had another dream of Irene and myself and woke up afterward at about 2:00 am ... after I told her to be sure I remember dreams of us even if she has to wake me up in the middle of the night. I laid back down after a couple of hours of work and after about 20 minutes I couldn't tell if my eyes were shut or not. I was seeing a horizon with trees silhouetted against a purple light source behind them. Behind that I could see what seemed to be the faint image of my pillows and headboard. This didn't feel at all like hypnagogia and it wasn't the same as astral sight.  I could open my eyes and shut them and it still didn't feel like I had them shut - it felt like they were wide open. On three separate occasions yesterday I did a full-lotus position meditation for 30 minutes. It is very easy and natural and after a couple of minutes I'm usually very relaxed and feel a vibration like being high on a drug (I guess - I've never actually been high on a drug).  In the latter...

As I wrote in an earlier blog, my daughter coming to live with me brought in some serious challenges for me to have to deal with mentally, and it went beyond the initial emotional vibration.  It felt like I was being pushed out of my current dimensional structure and it was rather unsettling.  The first thing I needed to do was take responsibility and take command instead of simply reacting and trying to sort out and deal with my reactions.  I assigned my daughter's issues to "spirit" - I could only do what I could do for her, which did not include solving her lifelong problems.  She had a safe place to live, food, etc.  The rest was up to her and her spirit team. Second, I began affirmations that all of this was ultimate in our (Irene's and my) benefit. Third, I knew that to keep on vibratory track with what Irene and I were doing, I'd have to keep doing full-lotus position meditation along with visualizations to keep from being emotionally dragged into my daug...

Just got finished talking to Irene for a while on the porch, and she brought some things to my attention so that I could put them together and share. The thing I did differently that led to that sweet dream yesterday was a kind of meditation (which I **needed** because of the emotions my daughter hit me with) and employed a very particular kind of visualization. There have been several threads of experience and information that have culminated in this method of having deeper experiences with Irene, dreams, and hopefully more astral projection experiences with her. As many of you know, I'm always looking to refine my technique in the hopes of being able to astral project with Irene at will. A lot of the techniques about how to astral project (well, all of them that I'm aware of) have a common thread: focusing on the textural reality of something as you are either trying to leave your body or as you are visualizing. It's also described as a way to stabilize your astral...

The other day one of my daughters came to stay with me for a while - wanted to move back to the area and get a job here. OMG it was like getting hit by an emotional tsunami. I had to actually go full-lotus meditation for about 30 minutes before I was right again. As we become more sensitive and tuned to the more subtle forms of communication between us and our crossed-over partners, this can have the unintended consequence of making us more open to those same forms of interaction with people still here. Keep in mind that some of the things your feel may not even be **your** emotions or sensations. There has been a long series of events that sort of culminated with that meditation yesterday, which included a conversation with Mary Beth, Irene's Ipad use some time ago and what she brought my attention to, comments Jurgen Ziewe said about astral projection and what a member said in the Zoom group yesterday about their increased capacity to visualize. There is a process tow...

First-Person Experiential Research: Using Hypnagogic States as Bridging Dimensions For Afterlife Interaction For the record, I have a theory of mind and multidimensional existence that I use as the foundation of my personal experimentation. It's "scientific" in the sense that my experimentation is designed along the lines of "If my concept of of mind works, then I should be able to do X and see positive, corresponding results." I've been doing hypnagogic state exploration to be with Irene for many months (if not over a year now), and that process (which begins with the prayer, intention and visualization) is what delivered the unexpected full astral projection visitation I had with her. That experience is what motivated me to pursue this particular line of investigation. However, those semi-conscious hypnagogic visualizations prior to the astral projection, and up until recently, seemed to be utterly random and never included Irene, and if I pulle...

Irene has started making appearances in my hypnagogic experiences lately.  My perspective on this is that we are achieving progress on creating our transdimensional bridge.  She has validated this a couple of times and the information I get from our talks is often validated from other sources.  I've also been having new and increasing physical sensations when we sit and talk; a very pleasant tingling on my left side, where she sits.  When I affirm to her where and what I'm feeling, she'll touch another part of my body and I'll feel the same thing, which is a combination of a cool, physical tingling and an emotional sweetness. During our group meditation Saturday, my visualization with Irene on the group astral cruise liner suddenly became focused on the two of us in an area of the ship where there was live music and dancing, and we were slow-dancing to "Tennessee Whiskey" by Chris Stapleton . It was amazing and we were just locked into to it for several minute...