Love After Life

Monday I woke up feeling like emotional crap.  I actually felt sad, but also anxious and frustrated.  It didn't seem like any of it had to do with Irene, and it really didn't seem like it could have anything to do with me.  I drove into town to do some shopping and I just happened to walk by a section of puzzles in a part of the store I don't normally walk through. This one puzzle caught my eye; it was of a castle. Not just any castle, it was the castle that Disney castles are modeled after - Neuschwanstein Castle  in Bavaria.  This was the first castle I pinned on Pinterest when I started visualizing Irene and I in a castle in the afterlife, only multi-colored, which is what led me to Disney castles.  However, the puzzle wasn't just a picture of that castle; it was a digitally enhanced, more artistic version both of the castle and the surroundings.  It looked more like a combination of a beautiful 3D, color-enhanced model of the castle and a digitally...

I had a very interesting experience yesterday while talking with Irene on the porch.  In our visualization, she was sitting in my lap with her arms around me and we were talking about how good it was to be able to have these visualized experiences, to be able to cuddle up and how good it made me feel.  For a few seconds I was in an altered state of consciousness and I said something to her very matter-of-factly, but in a jesting manner: "Yeah, it's like having nine years of foreplay." It was almost like a dream-state of consciousness, and the fact that I had said that to her almost slipped from my memory when I returned to my normal state of consciousness right after saying it.  I literally said out loud, "Wait, what did I just say? Nine years?" Why on Earth would I say we were going to have, specifically, nine years of transdimensional foreplay? The thing was, I said it completely as if I knew it at the time.   There was no hesitation or any sense of jus...

I'm writing Irene letters more often now. Instead of hand-writing them, which is a very painstaking process for me that usually ends up taking several days, I just type them up using the computer and then hand-write or draw on them. I'm also sending her portions of the new book with the letters. It makes the process easier and less daunting and she said it's totally fine.  I realize she knows most of the stuff I'm writing her about, but that's not the point; I just enjoy it and she enjoys getting letters from me. It helps empower the connection. We had our first Zoom meeting for Your Eternal Romantic Relationship and I thought it went really well. I felt far more comfortable in that group than I do in the automatic writing group. It will be interesting to see how it develops. There were about 6 people there, not including the hosts. The same transdimensional things have been occurring - signs from Irene, confirmations, visualizations, hypnagogic activit...

My daughter, Gerra, and her son came and visited this past weekend, and my son and his family also came over to visit. We all had a great time and they had all left by noon Sunday. After doing a little work, Irene and I decided to check out a new series on Netflix. We enjoyed it so much we decided to just binge watch the series for the rest of the day, cuddled up on the couch and forgetting about anything else.  It sounds so trivial, but it was incredible.  We were just lost in enjoying each other's company and the show - no worries, no concerns, no work, no pressures.  Free to just enjoy ourselves without a care in the world. Here it is a couple of days later and I'm still feeling the amazing effects of just "letting go" and allowing us to be together, doing nothing "productive" whatsoever, just having fun. We ate popcorn, drank coffee and smoked and were just with each other in transformative bliss. I say "transformative" because that sim...

Irene crossed over one year ago today. I woke up this morning and said to her, "Good morning and happy anniversary!"  We talked about how much had happened, how much we had achieved in one year of our transdimensional relationship.  Who would have believed our love would be even deeper and the vision of our future together so thrilling?  Who would have thought that such a relationship could be so much fun, without even any class-A fully-experiential interaction?  Who would have even thought a fraction of this was possible? Our love not only survived her death - it has thrived!  We conquered grief, pain, longing and sorrow and fashioned a wonderful new aspect of our eternal romance.  In many ways, it has set us both free to turn our minds to the unlimited potential of the creative power of our twin-flame, soul-mate relationship, collaborating intimately on manifesting all our desires, dreams and delights without the apparent restrictions - psychological,...

Saturday, after doing some work in the morning, I walked into the living room and a picture of the two of us (the one I used for the cover of  Love After Life), had been knocked over. I picked it up and did other things for a few minutes and came back into the room and it had been knocked over again.  That's when I realized I had totally forgotten to pour Irene a cup of coffee.  I did so and there were no more problems with the picture. Later we were out on the porch meditation and working on a game system we want in the afterlife.  I went to eat something and turn on the TV and she has once again changed the channel and her favorite show is on. It was one we had already seen a couple of times so we watched a recording of the latest Blue Bloods episode, which we both enjoy watching.  About ten minutes into the show there is a location shot of a hospital with big letters on the building - Saint Irene's.  Later in the show Danny is telling someone about hi...

In the past couple of days Irene has become pretty interactive beyond her usual scope.  She continues to draw in the coffee I set out for her, change the channels to her favorite shows and appear in my dreams, but now she's also interacting with others.  She started mentally communicating with a friend of mine (who has solid connections to the afterlife/spirit) while we were talking on the phone, sending a mental image I would understand for my friend to relay to me.  She moved a cup in my granddaughter's house to get her attention and the actually appeared as an orb right in front of her face, sending a warm and non-scary tingling throughout her - a great accomplishment since my granddaughter is usually freaked out by such things. Via the same combo of that friend and Irene's urging, I was also led to a documentary about the "Century of the Self" that had some really good information that mattered to me and an interview of Susanne Wilson.  This is unusual beca...

After posting in several FaceBook groups about how, in most ways, my relationship with Irene is better now than ever, others posted how they cannot imagine their transdimensional relationship ever possibly being better than having their soul-mate with them in this world. I also could not even begin to imagine that until it started happening, but here is something I deeply believe:  everyone's relationship, individual circumstances, history and purpose in this world is different and so cannot be compared or judged by any other.  Everyone is on their own journey and I don't see or sort such things hierarchically or along some linear path towards common goals or destinations.  Everyone has a unique story and perspective. That said, I would like to offer a more thorough explanation of our particular situation and the reasons why I say our relationship is "better than ever." When I first met Irene, my attraction to her was almost entirely mental.  Physically, she wa...

I'm developing what is to me a very interesting and exciting perspective and routine concerning meditation, visualization, naps, and going to sleep at night.  It involves seeing these things as natural methods of transdimensional experience exploration, examining states of consciousness and sensations of experience via directed thought and imagery and hypnagogic states.   Today before lying down to do some transdimensional experience exploration (take a nap), I asked for some encouragement for this experimentation and got some.  (I also asked for help from anyone that could give it to me that was on my Spirit Team instead of just asking Irene, so that may be relevant going forward.) I didn't fall asleep during the 30 minutes I was lying down, but I did experience various states of consciousness and imagery. Of course, my directed imagery involved Irene, since that always produces my highest enjoyment. I had two distinct occurrences of what I call "Persistent T...

There's a side to my life now - the time I spend with Irene in Always, our Happy Place - that most other people in my life don't know about.  When I lie down to rest, take a nap or go to sleep, it's fun and exciting.  I have a whole world of fun, romantic, and interesting things to do with Irene, as well as us visualizing together more new things.  It's so great to be able to fall asleep visualizing us and having conversations, or just being together in whatever surroundings we want. It's fun to drift off into different meditative states while resting, keeping conscious and trying to "leave my body" or focus on various imagery that starts popping up, all while talking with Irene.  Sometimes I get a bit of a pleasant dream with her, other times I just wake up knowing we were together and I'm uncontainably happy.  My emotional range of experience the past couple of months has been from "normal" - which is still feels good - to "euphoric....