Love After Life

We've finally had a break in the heat as Fall approaches.  I'm feeling even more connected to Irene, happy and blissfully content.  Last night and this morning I was telling Irene that I must have gotten to the point where my subconscious has become greatly in line with the continuation of our relationship because there's no other way to account for my ongoing excitement and enthusiasm about us going forward. If, somewhere in my subconscious, I felt like Irene was "gone", or I felt like I was lying to myself about our relationship, I would certainly feel miserable. The only reason anything in life mattered to me before she crossed over, or was enjoyable at all, was my connection to Irene.  Meeting her and being with her changed everything about my perspective, but that was always dependent on having her with me.  Just being in contact with her would melt away all angst and worry and fill me with peace and a sense of equanimity. That's what I have been feel...

Even though it's STILL 100 degree heat outside every day, and the bedroom in particular not as cool as I like it, I've been having really great visualizations, hypnagogic experiences and flashes of astral sight and sound whenever I lie down.  It leaves me very happy, content, excited and energized! We had a discussion in our Love After Life Zoom Group yesterday about how different this kind of relationship is from other, "ordinary" romantic relationships, and it got me to thinking about it this morning.  The thing is, it's not just a romantic relationship; we're also best friends and two people that love to talk with each other about all sorts of things.  We're comrades, compatriots, companions and two creative collaborators.  We are like-minded rebels, both of us very independent from social norms and expectations. We make each other laugh and have the same kind of humor.  We're both semi-hermits and are just fine staying at home with each other. We h...

One of the things I've been thinking about since my astral visit with Irene is about how, when I found myself there, I didn't have to look for her, try to find where she was, etc. It was about 7:30 or 8:00 a.m. here, and when I flipped over to the astral she was right there - sitting beside me, and we were having the same conversation we were having before when I was lying in bed here. More than that - it was all perfectly normal and natural - like this is what we do all the time, the "normal" of our relationship, much like it was before she crossed over. She and I were just sitting on the couch next to each other, apparently watching TV and talking about stuff. It may not seem fantastic, but that's exactly what was so fantastic about it - it felt utterly ordinary to be there with her. So ordinary, in fact, I didn't even realize what had happened for several minutes. Often, people in this situation are worried and afraid that something big has changed in the r...

There are some really cool things I've come to know about the transdimensional situation Irene and I are in - why we chose to live this life, what we are doing now, and what it means for our future.  I don't claim that this applies to anyone else, so if it resonates, great, if it starts making you feel conflicted or upset, just stop reading and ignore it. Irene and I are eternally together.  We are perfectly whole together and painfully incomplete apart.  No one else will do for either of us.  I'd say we were fortunate to have understood and experienced this in our life, but luck didn't have anything to do with it.  We planned all of this before we came here, and we have been monitoring it the whole time. There was a time period after Irene crossed over that I didn't understand why we would do this - come here, forget everything, spend 30+ years apart, have all these challenges including pain, financial stress, all the countless distractions, and then go thr...

For the past nine days I've been on a new food regimen, and for the past five I've developed a new daily habits and activities schedule.  This has all been accomplished by ordering my conception of things in terms of my relationship with Irene, contributing to our creative energy reservoir, and by relating habits, thoughts and activities here with what I imagine their counterparts to be in the afterlife. IOW, I'm trying to behave as if I am already "in the afterlife" with Irene now - because, in truth, I realize now that I am.  This has produced more energy, motivation and enthusiasm that I've had in a very long time. For my entire life I've pretty much felt that all work and activity in life was ultimately futile because the nature of this world ultimately destroys everything I do here; but now I see that efforts have more far-reaching and much longer-lasting impact in dimensions I cannot see right now. The "afterlife" and my current experienc...

The past few days Irene has been changing up her coffee-drawing routine - some days she draws in it some days there's absolutely nothing - just a cup with uniform brown color without even a pale swirl.  The way I make her coffee has been absolutely the same each day, and the environmental factors have been the same.  The milk has come out of the same container. She's not been just getting my attention and reinforcing the fact that it is her that makes the drawings; noticing this has also helped move my thoughts and attention in a certain direction. Yesterday I came up with a new form of our memory-suppression game, where she wakes up in the afterlife with the memory awareness of having just crossed over from her illness, waking up in our bed in the astral to find me there with her.  This led me to think more about the whole memory-suppression concept, and I found a new way of visualizing the idea, but more importantly it made me realize that all individual consciousness...

This past week I've been experiencing something I refer to as a normal transdimensional relationship with Irene - well, normal as it pertains to a romantic soul-mate relationship.  That's why a week has passed without my blogging about anything - it just seems like our normal life now. It feels to me like I would just be blogging about my normal, everyday life.  It feels like there's nothing noteworthy or remarkable about it to commit to this blog. Emotionally, I'm completely good - happy, feeling whole and complete with Irene, enthusiastic about our lives together, waking up and going to bed with a big smile on my face.  Intellectually, I am completely satisfied with what I know and believe about what we call the afterlife.  We are totally back in our own happy little world but with a much broader, better, more specifically eternal outlook and the opportunities that provides. Last night as I lay in bed, I was mentally holding Irene in my arms and talking...

Yesterday I got five confirmations from Irene (two after I made my last edit to that post).  I had told her that I would like some pretty serious confirmations on what we were talking about, because it represented a major addition to my understanding of what we she and I are doing When I was talking with Irene about different scales of the amnesia experience, I wasn't using the word "experience" - I was using the word "game," - "the amnesia game." I changed the word for the post in order not to give others the idea I was thinking of all of this flippantly or superficially. I consider it a very important aspect of the development and maintenance of a long-term afterlife experience, and also a very important, even defining aspect of an Earth experience.  "Mini-game" was a phrase I used to describe different short-term amnesia experiences so that we could give each other the temporary re-experience of meeting each other as if for the first t...

In the course of working on our future together in the astral, Irene and have been talking about and exploring different systems by which to enjoy our eternal everlife together.  Something we've been working on for a long time, which has its roots in something we we experienced here in life, is what we call "the amnesia experience," where one of us has a temporary bout of amnesia and gets to encounter the other as if for the first time for a brief duration.  We already had a few of models for enjoying this experience worked out when we started exploring the idea of having a "second life" in an adventure game world where all we would have no memory of our astral lives for the duration of our pre-set time to play. In other words, when we entered the adventure game world, we would have an ongoing life there in and of itself. I started thinking it would be cool if, when we entered the game world we would be "waking up", and when exiting we would be ...