Tuesday, May 23, 2017 "Perfect Accord"

I have crashed into a world of hurt today.  My mind latches onto every conceivable thought and feeling to generate more pain and suffering, trying to turn everything into crap – all thoughts of the past, present and future.  My mind is seeking out every conceivable avenue of accumulating pain, despair and regret, and nothing I do seems to give it any pause.  The grief is causing so much confusion in my head, making me doubt everything, wondering if Irene and I are even on the same page, wondering if I'm hurting her with my grief, wondering how she can stand me right now, wondering if she had so many better things to do than to be constantly running to my aid. I realize I can't remember the date we met.  Was it January 10th?  20th?  I can't believe I can't remember.  I plunge even further into despair.

At one point I started the Long Island Medium recording (the magic flower commercial) to try and see the flower commercial again. It wouldn’t come on – it was just the back pain commercial over and over, like six or seven times. I broke down and just pleaded with her to help me, that I needed something really bad.  I skipped back 10 seconds once again just crying my eyes out and boom – an entirely different commercial started after the fashion commercial. It wasn’t the flower commercial- it was a Honda Accord commercial – a current one that wasn’t even running back when we made the recording.  My mind was blown.

The opening term was “Perfect Accord” – In other words, Irene is letting me know that we are in perfect accord,  not to worry about all the things that have been making me feel so confused and susceptible to grief and negative mindsets.  At the end of that commercial I saw this:  0.9 APR 2017 and immediately knew it meant 1990, Jan 9, the ninth day of 90 – that was the day we met. APR 2017 was the month she passed.  That phrase, "Perfect Accord", makes a deep impression on me - it has almost magical qualities. It reaches down deep in my heart and quiets my fears and doubts.

I skipped back several times and never saw the Perfect Accord commercial again that night.  I thanked Irene repeatedly, and thanked anyone else in spirit that might have been involved repeatedly, and thanked God repeatedly.

Also, Gerra had been trying to make a decisions for weeks about whether or not to get one of her cars fixed or the other, or just buy a new car.  When I told her about it, she took it as a sign that she should just go ahead and buy a new car.  She got several signs after that which validated that impression.