Love After Life

It's just so unbelievable, when you think about it, how far Irene and I have come in so short a time.  Not even a year has passed since she crossed over, and our connection is so good and our visualizations together are so immensely satisfying, our communication so easy, it's like I'm living in a dream world that keeps getting better and better.  The feeling is like living in a constant state of varying degrees of euphoria. She can shoot me a look, a playful smile, a sarcastic comment and it will just go all through me like someone shot me up with heroin (well, what I imagine that must feel like - I've never tried it). To think of how I felt not that long ago - the dark despair, the searing pain, the sense of hopelessness - and to compare it with what we have now, I can't say enough just how remarkable it is.  I don't say that in the sense of "Look what I've accomplished!" , but rather in the sense of "Holy crap! Who would have ever though...

Wow, has a week really gone by? I think that's the longest I've gone without posting here. To tell you the truth, it often feels to me that my experiences are so "normal" now that it doesn't occur to me to write it down in the blog. My meditations lately have been fantastic. I immediately get tuned in and feel like I'm coming out of my body. The visualizations are really great as well. Lately I've been including Pico and Marley, our dogs, in the visualization because it came to my attention they were feeling left out. I never even considered the notion that my visualization could actually draw them into our experience. That's pretty mind blowing. It kind of broadens the scope of what can be accomplished via visualization. I'm co-hosting an automatic writing group for AREI zoom rooms. As part of that, I read up on what automatic writing was - I really had no idea. Come to find out, virtually everything I write about in terms of existential ...

I just thought I'd make a post about the basic afterlife information I've accumulated. Most people when they cross over find themselves in a world much like ours. It feels every bit as physical, except is is much more responsive to thought. People that OOBE and NDE, and information via credible mediums say  it is a hyper-real physical experience - it feels even more real than this world. Unless we desire to appear otherwise, most find themselves at the peak of physical health and youth. We are the same people there as here - same desires, same personality, same sense of humor, etc., and some have to undergo a healing and/or therapy time to deal with the mental effects/trauma/disorders that we can carry over with us. Others who have deeply entrenched beliefs often find themselves experiencing the manifestation of those beliefs because of the afterlife responsiveness to mind. We are capable of doing all the things there, physically, that we do here. From what I've read and ex...

A couple of nights ago I got another dream kiss from Irene, so I've been feeling really great about all the dream contact we've been having.  We spent quite a bit of time on the porch talking, drinking and yes, engaging in our bad little habit of smoking for the holidays. It was SO much fun, because during the day I had come to a pretty amazing understanding. Irene lives here. The astral realms are right here. When people talk about the difference in frequencies "separating" us, that's kind of a mischaracterization.  The astral planes and Earth don't represent different "worlds", but rather simply different frequencies and interpretations of the same place.  This is how she is always with me - we literally are together but just experiencing slightly different interpretations and frequencies.  I've had family over the past few days and got more coming, so sorry I haven't been able to write more.

I'm still a little off-frequency today, but doing better.  (Frequency constipated?  Get new astral-tone, the app that puts you back in focus!) I actually experienced about five minutes of sadness yesterday - I think it was more of a pity-party than anything else. You know your spirit team really, really loves it when you start throwing pity-parties.  I can just see the eyes rolling. Really? Five minutes of sadness? Good grief! How good does this guy have to have it? I kept reminding myself that to not try and figure out a solution, but rather just trust the process.  I remembered a dream again this morning, so my dream-remembering initiative is really going well.  Something I noticed about my dreams is that I don't have a lot of tactile sensation, it's mostly sight and sound. There was an interesting conversation that developed off of one of my posts about the validating process; essentially it was about where we draw the line between "what is real" and ...

That information from yesterday and the atmosphere doing tricks here has me out of sorts.  I feel like my frequency is just a bit off.  Maybe things are sorting themselves out.  I don't really even like to think about that information because it just bogs my head down with trying to organize what it al means. Today I focused on more simple lines of thought - like trust the process.  Meditate, pray, intend, affirm, do things that need to be done, let god and the universe and my soul team take care of everything else.  My job is to focus on what I want, do what that intention brings me to do, and don't get in the way or sabotage the process.  Sometimes the best thing to do is just concentrate on the basics and your job and let everything else sort itself out. That in itself can be a difficult task.  Some days just need to be gotten through without beating myself up as if there was more I could do.  Time to read my reminders and find new pins...

During a great meditation this morning irene and I were talking about the way I always try to frame things into "conceptual frameworks" so I can understand things better intellectually.  I had been reading some comments in the afterlife groups about the difficulties in interacting with loved ones who have crossed over and also about our "multidimensional" nature. Our "multidimensional nature" has always been a thorny subject with me.  If this is some "small part" of my consciousness, it pisses me off to think that some other or "higher" aspect of my consciousness is enjoying interacting with Irene while this part of my consciousness  is stuck here using imagination, visualization and meditation to have contact with her, having occasional and minor doubts that even these experiences are "true". So we come back to what someone said in my "drifting off" state yesterday. "Why do we doubt?" Irene kept ma...

I had another exhausting day yesterday with family - good, but exhausting.  I get hit with way too many frequencies and basically end up needing to isolate myself, but at least now it's back to the usual impact and I don't have to constantly worry about crashing or having emotional "attacks" during such events. Today has been very interesting.  I lay down a couple of times for astral projection attempts while falling asleep and began trying to focus on the semi-dream imagery that would begin to play out as I was drifting off.  It was hard to remember what was going on in those scenarios when I would pull myself awake.  The second time I lay down to do this there were a couple of things that stood out - one was when someone in my field of view said "Let me give you this" and walked over to  hand me something. It looked like a small square piece of plastic in their palm.  Another time someone asked very clearly "Why do we doubt?"  Putting it in ...

So far today my time with Irene has been excellent, our interactions gaining an atmospheric quality that feels more authentic.  While laying down for a rest and visualizing this morning, other people - children - were with us outside at our island home. I didn't recognize them, there were at least two of them.  I wasn't asleep, but I was in that semi-conscious state where dream-like scenarios play out briefly.  Usually when that happens, though, it seems to be in random locations with random things going on until I catch my wandering mind and put it back on track. During a later meditation when I visualized us we were in that same location. Irene usually appears in a colorful swimsuit lately (and no, I didn't direct that to be the case, it just started happening), but this time she was dressed more elaborately.  It was something like a fantasy version of an Arabian princess.  I didn't deliberately do that, either, but I did remember us talking before - I don'...

So weirdly, again, I was blocked again by circumstances from trying to astral project today. One thing after another kept intervening.  A few weeks ago when I was trying to astral project the position I was using and the techniques were very uncomfortable and my I kept either having a very dry and sticky throat or allergy drainage.  I'm wondering if there is some reason I'm not supposed to be astral projecting or if this is another example of my current mental habits trying to stop me from traveling out of my current state by throwing obstacles in my way. That's something Irene and I noticed during our lives that whenever we were trying some new habit or lifestyle change to alter course, suddenly there would be all kinds of obstacles.  We recognized the pattern - it's like trying drive a car out of a rut you've cut by going on the same path over and over - getting out of the rut isn't smooth as you bound over the ridge and then have to drive outside of the smo...

I've been getting a lot of new information through "irene".  I can't express here enough what that imagined time with her is doing for me now that I believe I am actually connecting to her - it's so satisfying, calming, fun, informative, and it makes me very, very happy.  The information coming in  is extremely interesting.  Yesterday she was telling me about how my "presence" there is still a very light presence, that there are a lot of things there I'm not present enough yet to sense. One thing she said was that our house - the structure, the things in it - when you're fully over there, you can feel these things when you touch them to a much more intense degree than things you touch in the physical world.  She showed me how she used to tell me how she knew what things to get, or what to put in the house or get rid of by how they "spoke" to her. She told me when she first saw this house that it "hugged" her when she walked ...

Weird day. Felt disconnected, neutral, had a long discussion about whether or not I liked it, what to do about it.  Wrote Irene another note.  I got up early – 3:00 am to make the kids some breakfast before they headed out to Colorado to see Helen, Chuck and John. Sessions have been good. I need to get some memes about doing the work and being good with average days and normal days and to let things happen without panicking or feeling weird.  Got to feeling bad later, wished I hadn’t gotten weird about feeling disconnected or neutral.   Realized later I need to stop trying to figure these things out and have faith and go forward in trust, faith and love. I’m incapable of figuring out how this is going to work, all I can do is do what resonates with me when I am led to information about how to proceed.  God can make me feel any way at any time, and god can open the way between Irene and I at any time.  Some things just take time and I need to trus...

So this happened last night before I went to bed: I was asking Irene for some validation (yes, I’m still a needy SOB at times), and I started reading an e-book called “Soul Smart” by Susanne J. Wilson that had been recommended in the afterlife group several times.  I was telling Irene that I usually dislike reading what anyone else has to say about the afterlife and spirit communication because it doesn’t take much to upset my apparently delicate equilibrium.  Anyway, I felt like it was okay to at least read some of this so I started it very tentatively. It was really, really incredible.  Everything Susanne said was describing what I had come to be doing and the information I had gotten from Irene or from someone on the other side.  I had already created an incredible “sacred space” for my meditation without even realizing it, sitting on the couch in my usual position (Irene would always sit right next to me), right in front of the “shrine” that had actually bee...

Felt normal to good all day with only a couple of minor, 15 second bouts of sadness.  I had 3 sessions today.  This is becoming a standard pattern for me.  One early in the morning, one around noon, and another around 6pm. From all the information I have gathered by reading websites about the afterlife and watching videos and combining that with what I knew already, I decided that some of my session intention needed to be tweaked; I no longer intend to “raise” my vibration level, but rather to put my physical body and thoughts on “sleep” or “stand-by” mode while I focus on activating my spiritual senses.   I think this concept is much more accurate to what I’m actually trying to do.  I'm always looking to make my intentions and prayers more direct, accurate and simple.