Love After Life

I was talking to Irene and watching something recorded in the living room and decided to go into the den to turn the TV on early and pause it for Wheel of Fortune. I walked into the den and got the TV set and walked back into the living room and realized I hadn’t turned off the TV. The remote wasn’t on the coffee table where I usually leave it. The coffee table is clean - no clutter, only the remotes, a couple of coasters and a picture of Irene and me. This kind of thing has been happening lately where I think I’ve misplaced a remote, but it turns out I just overlooked it (or so I thought) and it’s right where I already looked – on the coffee table. I got in the habit of actually counting the remotes on the table (I have 6) and making sure I consciously examine the table to make sure I’m not just missing it. I counted them - 5 remotes. I make sure to look at each one when I count and scrutinize the entire table. I figured I must have absent-mindedly took it with me when I we...

It may seem like this blog has been off-topic for the past few posts, but getting my mental house in order has been a significant step forward.  I realize now that there was a good reason I kept resisting things like EVP and various OBE techniques along with other methods and processes for increasing my contact with Irene. Initially, all those things just felt like too much work, and I started remembering that every time in my life I worked hard at making something happen, it wouldn't and I would just get frustrated.  Most everything that has come to me in life did not come because I worked at getting it; it just came and my contribution was not screwing it up or rejecting it. Irene, of course, was just delivered into my life by source.  All I had to do was say "no" to things I did not want that came into my path, and say "yes" to Irene, even though she represented a path that, to say the least, made me very uneasy. I knew the moment she started talking to m...

A series of interesting events has led me to become fully invested in a further iteration of the "mental reality" framework that not only dispenses with so-called "spiritual levels", but also the idea of distinctly different, separated dimensions.  It is my view now that literally everything is right in front of us, around us, within us, and it is our cognitive consciousness that sorts out what we experience and what we do not. Irene is not in another dimension; she is literally right here with me. My inability to see her the way I used to is a psychological issue, nothing more. It is cognitive blindness: I cannot experience that which does not fit within this framework of my conscious psychology and its connected subconscious psyche.  It's all part of mental reality and how it works to organize experience from our own psyche. Irene and I were talking about this when someone posted a link, in the Love After Life group, about a movie coming out where a youn...

A lot of how people organize their thought about what we call "the afterlife" is based on fundamentally inapplicable principles. Our thought here is conditioned by (at least) three fundamentally erroneous ideas: linear time, limited time, and subjective/objective duality. (There's a couple more I can think of but I won't bring them up here.) If we are eternal beings, concepts that depend upon the premise of limited time will likely produce erroneous ideas and conclusions. An example of this is the idea of substantive "growth" or "learning." The idea that we are on some kind of overall, substantive learning or growth trajectory is incongruous with the idea of us being eternal beings. Simply put, what are you going to learn that you haven't already had time to learn, considering your eternal past? All we can be doing, in an eternal framework, is changing how much experience we remember, how much knowledge we have conscious access to, for the purp...

So, this is a "coming out" post. I'm a channeler.  I channel information easily and it is prolific.  In fact, a lot of the time I just refuse to do it.  I've refused to put most of the information I get out into the world unless I first edit it profusely and characterize it entirely as it being my opinion, my personal perspective. A large portion I've just never really shared, except very rarely on this blog.  This has been going on since the early 1990's when I channeled two books that were published by Loompanics: Anarchic Harmony and Unconditional Freedom . I didn't know that was going on at the time. After I became the co-host of Sheila Lowe's Zoom group on automatic writing and mediumship, I read up on what those and other terms meant, and realized I had been channeling/automatic writing since I started writing that first book.  The content just came to and through me - it wasn't any effort and these things just write themselves, while I ...

This is part two of the channeled information I waded through the past week or two, concerning what we refer to as "spirit" and our connection to it. Again, I apologize for the authoritative tone and issue my usual caveat: accept what resonates, dismiss the rest. Our Connection to "Spirit" First, what is "spirit"?  The phrases used in much of the afterlife community reflects a certain history of thought which characterizes our transdimensional interactions in a particular perspective, as if our "normal" experiences in this physical space are somehow less "of spirit" than other kinds of interactions.  For example, we don't usually consider normal conversation to be as much "of spirit" as information coming to us from mediumship, automatic writing, channeling, using EVPs, etc. Note the normal characterization of such "spiritual" interactions as information coming from "non-physical" or "spirit,...

I blame Kim LaCapria for triggering the following, which is a channeled download. As always, I apologize for the authoritarian tone and pease, take what resonates and dismss the rest: I'll be using the term "mind" for the most part, but others can substitute "soul" our "spirit" if those terms better fit their perspective in the following post. Most people think of mind in terms of a distinct three-dimensional construct, probably because the culture deeply associates the mind with the physical brain.  Those of us involved in the afterlife community understand that the mind is not the brain, because it survives death and continues on - same personality, same memories, but not in any essential way equivalent to the physical brain.  Therefore, memories, thoughts, our personalities, ideas emotional connections do not represent physically located and physically caused phenomena. In my old Eastern Indian philosophy, the core essence of an individual was...

Over the past few days I've had one of the most incredible and game-changing series of synchronistic events I've experienced yet. It started with reading some thing from a couple of different sources that, for whatever reason, caused me to start thinking that maybe I was taking up too much of Irene's time by constantly talking to her and doing visualizations with her two or three times a day.  Looking back on it, that kind of doubt and thinking seems entirely out of my character. I went to be after that and did not do my usual visualizations in order to "free up" some of Irene's time.  It just sounds so ridiculous now, but the chain of events that followed shows that this was all set up to produce an effect - and what an effect!  When I woke up the next day I felt like crap - the worst I've felt in a long time.  Not grief, but actually sad. I literally have not felt sadness in almost a year now. So, Irene and I were talking about it, and she was telling me...

Yesterday I got two separate confirmations that I can transition to having full experiences with Irene whether or not I die here first, and we can start living our afterlife experience even while I'm still here. I also got confirmation about some ideas I had while visualizing our afterlife, but I'm going to save the unveiling of those for my new book. Something I can say, though, is that I've learned that my expectations or visualizations of the afterlife have been tempered to some degree by unnecessary limitations.  What we can have, what we can do, how it can work - it doesn't have to be scaled down  in order to be "reasonable" or to fit into some kind of overall working construct. That's the difference between a cosmological model based on an external world reality and one based on experiential reality - where experience is the sum total of reality. A friend of mine recently sent me some links that I think presents this concept (what I have called the...

For quite a while now I've been trying to articulate an information download I got during one of my hypnagogic experiences some time ago.  From time to time I've written a little about it here in the blog and elsewhere, but for the most part I've just tried to ignore it. It was for the most part just troublesome and confusing and didn't really serve my interest as far as increasing my connection to Irene and setting up our "afterlife" connection. As time passed, though, I started seeing how this information, properly articulated, could actually help me in that goal.  After more processing of the ideas I expressed in my last post, and a whole slew of synchronistic events supporting the direction of the development of those ideas, plus some more information I've gleaned from whatever source while talking with Irene, I've put together a model of existence that basically turns most cosmological models inside-out.  Perhaps some others might find it useful...

Tuesday the weather was wet, cold and humid.  My mind was pretty chaotic all day dealing with a lot of work and just not feeling that great in body, mind or spirit.  I had to fight with myself to get any work done at all.  I distracted myself by watching TV and then felt bad about wasting time.  It wasn't sadness, I just felt disconnected from our source frequency which keeps me calm and happy.  I was worried about too many things and felt sort of in a paralyzed state. Yesterday, though, I woke up and felt absolutely great, and it lasted all day long.  I was able to work all day without feeling frustrated or rushed.  The weather had changed and it was a perfectly clear, beautiful sunny day. I was able to sit in the swing under the magnolia tree and talk with Irene a couple of times and felt amazing connection to her. There's a feeling I get at times like this; an indescribable emotion I've talked about it before in this blog.  It's part love, part...

I'm still a little off-frequency today, but doing better.  (Frequency constipated?  Get new astral-tone, the app that puts you back in focus!) I actually experienced about five minutes of sadness yesterday - I think it was more of a pity-party than anything else. You know your spirit team really, really loves it when you start throwing pity-parties.  I can just see the eyes rolling. Really? Five minutes of sadness? Good grief! How good does this guy have to have it? I kept reminding myself that to not try and figure out a solution, but rather just trust the process.  I remembered a dream again this morning, so my dream-remembering initiative is really going well.  Something I noticed about my dreams is that I don't have a lot of tactile sensation, it's mostly sight and sound. There was an interesting conversation that developed off of one of my posts about the validating process; essentially it was about where we draw the line between "what is real" and ...

Still a bit under the weather today but have felt well enough to keep on track.  While I was sitting outside I was having a bit of a conversation in my head with Irene as if she was sitting beside me when I decided to send her a more focused mental message and immediately, in my mind, she said "Hey, I'm right beside you - you're talking right to me."  I turned my head and these two big black and  yellow butterflies flew into my field of vision right then, the same kind that I've talked about before.  I laughed and said "okay, okay" and in my mind she said "I'm always right here, with you."   I saw a small, empty chip bag being slowly blown down the street in front of my house.  I said to Irene:  "I know you think I should go pick that bag up, but ... nah. Don't wanna."   I went inside. Later in one of the afterlife groups there was a conversation about the same thing and they agreed that our loved ones are always with us -...

No confirmation so far on the stuff I was talking about the other day, but I guess I didn't need it. Or maybe I was just supposed  to make my own decision on it.  I guess I had really already made my decision about it and just wanted support in making it. Anyway, the guy in the video from the other day was talking about how he opened up his ability to speak to the dead.  He was a highly skeptical person and didn't believe that talking to the dead or even spirit guides was possible, so he just pretended to be talking to them in his mind.  If you've ever had a pretend conversation with someone in your mind, you know what I'm talking about.  I would often have long conversations in my head with living people, but it was really just me basically trying to sort something out in my own mind.  Come to think about it, they really weren't "conversations" as much as me, in my head, trying to explain to someone (usually my brother Reed) what I was thinking, and by ...

7:00 a.m. I fell asleep last night talking to Irene.  I love being in that dreamy state, still semi-conscious ... it lets me feel much more connected to her.  We continued the conversation this morning and I realized I was placing far too big a burden on myself - as she always says, overthinking things.   During the course of our relationship here, I learned that things worked out best when I stopped myself from trying to figure things out and simply went forward with her intuitions and "knowing".  Whether or not I believed something could happen, simply not getting in the way and not refusing to go along, not trying to talk her out of something, always worked out great. Eventually we got to the place where I could actively do my part in facilitating her intuitions and just trust what she felt. For instance, I never thought we'd be able to buy a home, and certainly not this particular, ridiculously large older home with 11' ceilings. Yet, I went through all the ...

Had a good morning, nice session, then I started getting weird about the time I was going to drive into town to get some chores done.  On the way into town I just went off in an angry tirade about being weak and sad.  Nothing like going for an angry tirade drive where you can just scream and shout to your heart's content and don't have to worry about anyone overhearing you.   In a nutshell, I’m just over it already.  This is not who first met Irene; this is not who she fell in love with.  This weak, sad guy is not the man Irene deserves.  I’m sick of so many thoughts and feelings running through my head and heart that are not mine. Throughout our life together we both had to become different people in order to cope with what was going on. We had to adjust our psychology and habits.  There’s nothing wrong with that – it’s a good thing to be able to adjust in order to be able to develop our relationship with regards to changing conditions, event...