Love After Life

For the past two weeks, Irene and I have been having a great time.  I've been able to release all worry about getting better physical clarity between us.  What we have right now is so good I'm not even concerned about it enough to "work" at it, other than by doing what we are currently doing, which is 100% satisfying, enjoyable and fun.  Talking with her during the day, making food for us and watching our shows, and doing visualizations with her, now feels like a completely normal and happy  continuation of our relationship.  I no more doubt that she is participating than I doubted it before she crossed over.  My psychology and body have totally acclimated to the new situation. Reflecting on this success, which to me is rather unbelievable, I've been able to better sort out what was the most helpful other than Irene's constant, loving help and attention, as well as any other people on the other side that may have been part of that help. Probably the mos...

Yesterday, as part of a larger discussion going on between OOBErs Cyrus Kirkptrick, Jurgen Zeiwe and medium Susanne Wilson, I asked Jurgen about his take on how people experienced different dimensions while even seemingly in the same location. After I asked the question (in the AREI FB group), I went and spent some transdimensional time with Irene. Lately the hypnagogic experiences begin almost immediately, but I have a greater awareness in them and recall of them. Irene and I talk about them while they are occurring. A couple have included her and moments of astral sight and sound. The scenario that played out was Irene and I having fun on the beach on our tropical island, at one point jumping about 40 feet out into the ocean water (like super-jumping), seeing who could out-jump each other. She had such a smile, so happy, and laughing so much - so excited to be together, it just went all through me. The emotional reaction was just like being there. I got up and came in an...

Last night after the Automatic Writing Zoom meeting, I felt a very significant change in my mental/emotional state.  It was very subtle but very profound, but I actually felt it happen.  I haven't fully processed it yet.  I really just wanted to mark the day here so I would be able to track the exact day.  The most I can say is that it feels like every bit of subconscious conditioning that caused doubt and fear just got turned off.  I didn't get much sleep and then my son came over so I haven't had a chance to do much reflection on it with Irene, and relatives (and the Zoom meetings) usually screw up my state, so I'm just seeing where this goes before I say much about it. It happened in the evening on Dec. 5, 2018, and I just felt different, like I'm in a completely secure, confident and normal relationship with Irene.   That's my initial impression, but it has brought up some entirely unforseen and unconsidered thoughts and reactions. More later. I ju...

The synchronicities, major and minor, have been really coming on strong lately.  A lot of them have to do with the Love After Life Facebook and Zoom groups I'm involved with, weaving in their experiences and information.  For instance, when I got home from the store Monday, there was this enormous dragonfly with its wing caught in my screen door.  Apparently, it got caught by the wing when I left and the door swung shut. It was fine - it flew off when I opened it. It felt sufficiently weird that I posted it in the FB group.  I didn't feel particularly connected to it other than I really felt that it might be part of another synchronistic event chain. Immediately after I posted it one of the group members drew my attention to the Kevin Costner movie, Dragonfly .   How could I have forgotten that? Irene and I had watched that movie together, although it was many years ago.  It's all about how the main character is getting signs and synchronicities from ...

My co-admin at the Facebook group Love After Life and co-host of the Zoom (video teleconferencing) group Mary Beth Spann Mank and I have been creating Love After Life Workshop videos.  We started this project because it is very difficult to schedule a convenient time for the people from around the world to meet up via the internet to go through the workshop we created to help people go through the process of creating a happy, fulfilling transdimensional relationship with our crossed-over soul-mates. I never really thought we'd get to the point where we are now, with 150 members of our Facebook group and weekly Zoom meetings with several group members in attendance every week. I had no idea there would be this many people who wanted to keep their relationship going after their partner's death.  We currently have a medium attending the Zoom meetings and she has been very beneficial to some members there, and she recently joined our FB group as she also has a crossed-over sweethe...

We we tried to record our first video - an introduction to the concept of having and developing transdimensional romantic relationships - for the Love After Life FB and Zoom group yesterday. The Zoom raw file wouldn't process, so we're going to have to try again this time using a different process or by using shorter clips.  If all goes well we're going to be creating more video resources for people who find themselves in this situation.  Mary Beth - the other host and admin - and I have decided we need to devote more time to the group since we now have about 150 members. The cooler weather has made a world of difference in my ability to do work.  Even though I wasn't feeling bad during the summer, it never fails to amaze me just how much difference cooler weather makes in my attitude and energy. I love it! Irene and I are still going strong and doing great.  Of course I've continued with my normal habits of talking to her, having mental time with her, putting o...

We've finally had a break in the heat as Fall approaches.  I'm feeling even more connected to Irene, happy and blissfully content.  Last night and this morning I was telling Irene that I must have gotten to the point where my subconscious has become greatly in line with the continuation of our relationship because there's no other way to account for my ongoing excitement and enthusiasm about us going forward. If, somewhere in my subconscious, I felt like Irene was "gone", or I felt like I was lying to myself about our relationship, I would certainly feel miserable. The only reason anything in life mattered to me before she crossed over, or was enjoyable at all, was my connection to Irene.  Meeting her and being with her changed everything about my perspective, but that was always dependent on having her with me.  Just being in contact with her would melt away all angst and worry and fill me with peace and a sense of equanimity. That's what I have been feel...

Am I doing enough? Too much? Am I doing it the right way? Trying too hard? Not hard enough? Am I bothering Irene? Am I too needy? Are my negative thoughts and emotions setting us back? Are they keeping us from going forward? Does she have other things to do? Am I boring her by saying the same thing over and over? Should I meditate more? Wake myself up in the middle of the night? Is that really her when I imagine her? When I feel her? What food, drink, medications or habits should I give up or take up to help? Should I try automatic writing, EVPs? How much effort should I put in them? Does Irene really want to do those things? Should I find a medium? At one point or another, every conceivable doubt and issue has crossed my mind with regards to my transdimensional relationship with Irene. Some were very fleeting, some were more difficult to process. IMO (in my opinion), none of what those doubts and fears refer to had as much impact on our transdimensional relationship than the wo...

Some things we were talking about in the Zoom group yesterday got me to thinking about the difference between what I know about life and the afterlife now, and how I react and feel during the course of my days now. Even though I updated the group on many of the fantastic things Irene and I have experienced the past week or so, I hadn't even written down one that is probably the most incredible. Irene reminded me about it this morning. In my life I've made a practice of changing my views and perspectives whenever they were not serving me well, some of it pretty deep stuff that resulted in - eventually - permanent psychological changes. In time, I would react, think and feel differently during the same kind of experiences, but it didn't happen overnight. It can take a while before a conscious change of perspective works its way throughout your body and your subconscious. This is why habits are so hard to break; our bodies and minds naturally prefer their long-standing ...

This past week I've been experiencing something I refer to as a normal transdimensional relationship with Irene - well, normal as it pertains to a romantic soul-mate relationship.  That's why a week has passed without my blogging about anything - it just seems like our normal life now. It feels to me like I would just be blogging about my normal, everyday life.  It feels like there's nothing noteworthy or remarkable about it to commit to this blog. Emotionally, I'm completely good - happy, feeling whole and complete with Irene, enthusiastic about our lives together, waking up and going to bed with a big smile on my face.  Intellectually, I am completely satisfied with what I know and believe about what we call the afterlife.  We are totally back in our own happy little world but with a much broader, better, more specifically eternal outlook and the opportunities that provides. Last night as I lay in bed, I was mentally holding Irene in my arms and talking...

Irene crossed over one year ago today. I woke up this morning and said to her, "Good morning and happy anniversary!"  We talked about how much had happened, how much we had achieved in one year of our transdimensional relationship.  Who would have believed our love would be even deeper and the vision of our future together so thrilling?  Who would have thought that such a relationship could be so much fun, without even any class-A fully-experiential interaction?  Who would have even thought a fraction of this was possible? Our love not only survived her death - it has thrived!  We conquered grief, pain, longing and sorrow and fashioned a wonderful new aspect of our eternal romance.  In many ways, it has set us both free to turn our minds to the unlimited potential of the creative power of our twin-flame, soul-mate relationship, collaborating intimately on manifesting all our desires, dreams and delights without the apparent restrictions - psychological,...

Saturday, after doing some work in the morning, I walked into the living room and a picture of the two of us (the one I used for the cover of  Love After Life), had been knocked over. I picked it up and did other things for a few minutes and came back into the room and it had been knocked over again.  That's when I realized I had totally forgotten to pour Irene a cup of coffee.  I did so and there were no more problems with the picture. Later we were out on the porch meditation and working on a game system we want in the afterlife.  I went to eat something and turn on the TV and she has once again changed the channel and her favorite show is on. It was one we had already seen a couple of times so we watched a recording of the latest Blue Bloods episode, which we both enjoy watching.  About ten minutes into the show there is a location shot of a hospital with big letters on the building - Saint Irene's.  Later in the show Danny is telling someone about hi...

After posting in several FaceBook groups about how, in most ways, my relationship with Irene is better now than ever, others posted how they cannot imagine their transdimensional relationship ever possibly being better than having their soul-mate with them in this world. I also could not even begin to imagine that until it started happening, but here is something I deeply believe:  everyone's relationship, individual circumstances, history and purpose in this world is different and so cannot be compared or judged by any other.  Everyone is on their own journey and I don't see or sort such things hierarchically or along some linear path towards common goals or destinations.  Everyone has a unique story and perspective. That said, I would like to offer a more thorough explanation of our particular situation and the reasons why I say our relationship is "better than ever." When I first met Irene, my attraction to her was almost entirely mental.  Physically, she wa...

After that big day and a half of constant visualization and mental communication with Irene, yesterday I felt some internal pushback. My physical body and physical-oriented psychology wasn't too happy about moving away from my comfortable physical-Earth centered system of visualizing her here and talking out loud. The strange thing is that it is even easier than visualizing her here with me and feels much better. You'd think that would prevent any such pushback (or mini-withdrawal) but, just like when she first crossed over, my physiology wasn't happy about the change. I didn't experience any grief or sorrow, it was just a weird kind of "no, I don't wanna do it" sensation in the back of my mind - like habit was actually given an emotion to express itself to me. As Abraham would say, a part of me was "resistant". So yesterday and this morning I've gone ahead and talked to her out loud on occasion just to ease myself more...

My relationship with Irene has reached a state of such normalcy and connection that I'm not even experiencing "forlorn longing" or sadness with regards to her not being here physically any more.  Every day now I'm very comfortable in my knowledge that she is here with me, that I am talking with her, and what is in store for us going forward.  Just like when she was here physically, I can get to where I need to be with her in more direct contact, and I meditate to get more deeply in tune with our shared consciousness frequency, but that was the norm for both of us here. I can get that with only a few minutes of visualization meditation. There are times when I want a more direct contact from her and I feel her presence more vividly, which causes my heart to race and tears of love and joy come to my eyes.  It is an exquisite, intimate sensation. I can just tell her I need to get a "dose" and she provides it.  When we were together we could just tell each othe...

I had another dream of Irene last night.  It was a pretty weird dream with all kinds of crazy stuff going on, but I woke up very excited and happy that I got to see her again.  Having family over for several days through Christmas and having a heavy workload I had to concentrate on didn't affect me very much emotionally, although I did feel a bit less connected to Irene for the duration.  I started to remedy that yesterday by meditating three times and going to bed early, talking to her as I fell asleep.  Lately, with the kids here, I usually fall asleep as soon as I lay down.  The meditations were good, deep and had great connection to her; the porch and evening talks were very nice, and the dream was really interesting and just topped everything off. It's easy to get into a distraction mode - watching too much TV, reading too much on the internet, etc.  I find it bizarre that I would revert to habits of distraction when I enjoy my connection to Ire...