Love After Life

I was talking to Irene and watching something recorded in the living room and decided to go into the den to turn the TV on early and pause it for Wheel of Fortune. I walked into the den and got the TV set and walked back into the living room and realized I hadn’t turned off the TV. The remote wasn’t on the coffee table where I usually leave it. The coffee table is clean - no clutter, only the remotes, a couple of coasters and a picture of Irene and me. This kind of thing has been happening lately where I think I’ve misplaced a remote, but it turns out I just overlooked it (or so I thought) and it’s right where I already looked – on the coffee table. I got in the habit of actually counting the remotes on the table (I have 6) and making sure I consciously examine the table to make sure I’m not just missing it. I counted them - 5 remotes. I make sure to look at each one when I count and scrutinize the entire table. I figured I must have absent-mindedly took it with me when I we...

(Originally posted in the Love After Life group on July 12; backdating it here to the same day and editing to remove names of members:) I wanted this to work at least twice before I posted it here. Two times (not on consecutive nights) I've asked Irene to show me something memorable, unique when I'm with her so that I have a better chance of remembering it when I wake up. I also told her to go ahead and wake me up after she shows me so I have a better chance of remembering. The first time was last Saturday night because a member of our Love After Life FB group had such a great astral experience after she challenged her partner to help her with an experience. It just sort of popped in my head to ask Irene to try showing me something that would stick in my head. That night she showed me a piece of art she and someone else worked on for something she was writing. It was a drawing of what looked like a unique, cute cartoon creature that was a cross between a seahorse and a s...

Yesterday, in our Love After Life group, we were supporting one of our members who was having a hard time feeling like their partner was still with them.  All of a sudden, Irene wants us to go to the Sonic and get a cheeseburger - she's very excited about it, but first she wants me to walk the dogs in the back yard. Normally we only get Sonic cheeseburgers on anniversaries and special occasions.  I usually don't go in the back with the dogs because it's a long walk and one of them is a little lame, but Irene is all excited and her mood is infectious so I get excited. I carry Marley to the back and let them do their business. Amazing how excited and happy a dog gets when he can pee and poop in a new area. Anyway, we get done and I get in the truck to head to the Sonic. I normally don't go anywhere on weekends, but we're both excited for some reason and I start it up and turn on the radio. Literally, the first words I hear from the radio - and it's not ...

This post is really more for myself than anything else, just to come back and be able to read at some point. I am incredibly happy, satisfied and excited.  When I think about what I was like just a year or so ago, I feel like we've achieved the impossible.  I'm perfectly content, I feel completely whole, our transdimensional relationship feels completely natural.  It all feels so normal now - our talks, our visualizations, her signs, the synchronicities - it literally feels like we are together again, physiologically, mentally, emotionally.  It feels better now than when she was here physically because I know what the future holds for us.  I know what we (Irene and I) are doing here and why we are doing it.  I'm totally satisfied intellectually about the nature of our existence and relationship, why we took on this Earthly experience, and why we may do so again in the future.  My heart is full.  I'm happy.  I am in daily, amazed appreciation ...

In light of our success, Irene and I have been talking about how to tailor our process.  We discussed how she might help on her end, and how I can help on mine by adjusting my affirmations and self-narrative to become more aware faster the next time I visit her.  Also, we talked about ways of keeping me in the visit longer.  I got an immediate synchronistic validation from her about how we are conceptualizing all of this - meaning, I'm actually there, in the astral, while I am participating in this experience, and she is helping me with the mental/psychological aspect of that. We're having an insufferable heat-wave with continuous 100+ degree days. I can't take naps past noon because my bedroom air conditioner can't handle the heat and lack of humidity. My bedtime has been moved from around 8pm to well after 10pm. I'm actually amazed this occurred in the midst of all this heat, which usually undermines my capacity to do anything meaningful. We're having a real...

Yesterday I sat down to eat and watch something light, so we continued watching "Supergirl" on Netflix.  When I sat down I remembered the shows where recently Irene has been giving me multiple confirmations on my "Simulation Hypothesis" views, about how this is a matrix or dream-like experience we "program" to enter and live in for a while for various reasons.  I said to her "I don't think you're going to be able to do another simulation theory confirmation with this show, babe." The show has never had anything remotely like "simulation theory" in it.  Or even any dream-oriented material. Sure enough, though the show begins with Supergirl in a highly realistic simulated reality/dream state (put there by some alien plant attached to her). She's living out her perfect fantasy world, back on Krypton with her family there. I was amazed not only at that confirmation, but that I had said what I said to her just before starting the...

Wednesday night the automatic writing and mediumship group, which I co-host, had a meeting. About 15 minutes into it, for whatever reason, I decided to try to do some automatic writing while the group was in progress. While I was watching and focused on the group (and being occasionally distracted by one of my dogs), I let my right hand just doodle in a notebook I had open in case I needed to take notes. I filled up three pages. The next morning I looked it over, and found something incredible! For those of you who don't know, my crossed-over wife, Irene, always makes white drawings in the coffee I set out for her, practically every day. She apparently uses the little bit of milk I put in the coffee. I found this message, running sequentially on the last page: "My milk flowers lets you know I love you forever my lover" Lover is her pet name for me - she always called me that.  A couple of lines down, I found  "home + young". Saturday it popped in my mind that...

Night before last I had a very bizarre dream.  I woke up feeling great, but the dream was really weird.  I was joking with Irene about it, about how maybe I didn't really want to remember all my dreams, but just the good ones with her in it. Later, it was time to run into town to do some errands, and the thought ran through my mind that she hadn't done any musical signs or synchronicities lately, but it's not like I ever really give her the opportunity - I don't listen to much music and when I'm in the car I listen to news. We were on our way to town and I turned on the radio to listen to some news, but the station had been changed, and the very first thing I heard, immediately on turning it on, was the word "dreamweaver".  The song was on and at the very end.  Very cool synchronistic sign. Irene has been really good at giving me emotional rushes when she wants to prod me in a direction, or when she agrees with me about something. I can think of doing some...

Yesterday I got five confirmations from Irene (two after I made my last edit to that post).  I had told her that I would like some pretty serious confirmations on what we were talking about, because it represented a major addition to my understanding of what we she and I are doing When I was talking with Irene about different scales of the amnesia experience, I wasn't using the word "experience" - I was using the word "game," - "the amnesia game." I changed the word for the post in order not to give others the idea I was thinking of all of this flippantly or superficially. I consider it a very important aspect of the development and maintenance of a long-term afterlife experience, and also a very important, even defining aspect of an Earth experience.  "Mini-game" was a phrase I used to describe different short-term amnesia experiences so that we could give each other the temporary re-experience of meeting each other as if for the first t...

Monday I woke up feeling like emotional crap.  I actually felt sad, but also anxious and frustrated.  It didn't seem like any of it had to do with Irene, and it really didn't seem like it could have anything to do with me.  I drove into town to do some shopping and I just happened to walk by a section of puzzles in a part of the store I don't normally walk through. This one puzzle caught my eye; it was of a castle. Not just any castle, it was the castle that Disney castles are modeled after - Neuschwanstein Castle  in Bavaria.  This was the first castle I pinned on Pinterest when I started visualizing Irene and I in a castle in the afterlife, only multi-colored, which is what led me to Disney castles.  However, the puzzle wasn't just a picture of that castle; it was a digitally enhanced, more artistic version both of the castle and the surroundings.  It looked more like a combination of a beautiful 3D, color-enhanced model of the castle and a digitally...

Irene crossed over one year ago today. I woke up this morning and said to her, "Good morning and happy anniversary!"  We talked about how much had happened, how much we had achieved in one year of our transdimensional relationship.  Who would have believed our love would be even deeper and the vision of our future together so thrilling?  Who would have thought that such a relationship could be so much fun, without even any class-A fully-experiential interaction?  Who would have even thought a fraction of this was possible? Our love not only survived her death - it has thrived!  We conquered grief, pain, longing and sorrow and fashioned a wonderful new aspect of our eternal romance.  In many ways, it has set us both free to turn our minds to the unlimited potential of the creative power of our twin-flame, soul-mate relationship, collaborating intimately on manifesting all our desires, dreams and delights without the apparent restrictions - psychological,...

I think I'm going to start using Suzanne Geisemann's term "everlife" instead of "afterlife" because it incorporates this life as well as part of our eternal lives. This is, after all, just another form of experience in the infinite variety of experiences available to our eternal existence. The other day Irene and I were visualizing some new things in "Always" - our name for our private experience realm (not entirely private - we do plan on inviting others to visit).  A visualization of us popped in my head, the two of us in a couple's tube floating down a lazy water park-like "river" path, winding through our island, the warm sun on us and the view full of beautiful trees, plants, flowers, birds, and animals near the water.  It brought back the memory of when, as a child, my family went to the Ozarks and we tubed down the river there for a couple of miles. That was one of the best memories I have as a child, and I have quite a few....

Some days are largely blah days - not meaning I feel bad, but that I just feel utterly unmotivated to do anything. Usually a certain kind of atmospheric conditions accompanies/causes it, along with interactions with people that negatively affect my vibrational happy place.  Both were going on this past weekend, culminating in a particularly affected day yesterday. Lately I've been more focused on tuning into a fully shared experience with Irene.  I want to be able to exist in both experiences at will.  Instead of trying to do something I did not feel like doing,  I spent a lot of time doing hypnagogic exercises before and after napping, and visualizations with Irene of things I found fun and interesting.  One of Abraham-Hicks memes is that if it's not fun or exciting, if you don't feel good doing something, just take a nap. After doing just that, I woke up and turned on the TV and the channel had been changed again to one of Irene's favorite shows, Fixer Upper...

Meditation the past several days has almost been like entering another dimension.  My brain is immediately buzzed and vibrating as if I'm on some kind of drug.  I don't want to leave the meditation, it feels so magnetic.  I can literally feel my entire body vibrating at a different frequency for up to an hour afterward. It's a very strange and cool sensation. I seem to be more sensitive emotionally to other people's vibes.  The almost-daily synchronicities and signs are still going on.  I'm also apparently better tuned in to Irene as I'm feeling her stronger, more emotionally at times.  I keep her and my spirit team apprised of my feelings and experiences as we move forward with the ongoing merging of our experiential "reality".  

Yesterday and this morning I got to feeling pretty cranky and rebellious. Not bad or sad - I still feel entirely connected to Irene, but I honestly started feeling like abandoning all the Afterlife FB groups and just discontinuing contact with everyone.  Most of them just seem so caught up in advocating for certain structures and views and insisting on limitations and spiritual judgments - with almost zero sense of fun or humor. It's kind of difficult to maintain my creative perspective when everyone else is all about being the victim of objective reality (at least, that's how I see it). I was feeling like an outcast rebel.  I have been rejecting all external authority and systems over my life, including any "oversoul" or "higher self" or any supposed rules about life or spirituality.  I want to be free to create whatever Irene and I imagine and want. I know she's with me, but still it felt a little isolated, which kind of pissed me off. This morning I w...

Since Irene crossed over last April, I've done a pretty good job documenting a lot of the signs, synchronicities and confirmations I've received.  Even though this blog is full of those events, this doesn't even come close to a full accounting of what all has transpired.  I don't know how often our numbers have appeared, or there will be immediate support and confirmation of thoughts I've been having, or the birds and squirrels will come along and do things that demonstrate I've got support and that Irene and my team are with me. It would not be an exaggeration to say that these events occur virtually every day, and most days I get multiple such events a day. Lately, the synchronicities are coming several times a day.  An example is that day before yesterday I had a passing thought that it would be cool to have a big, fancy treehouse on our astral island, and the next day a pinterest pin popped up with a treehouse - not just any treehouse, a great big full hom...

For the past few days Irene is putting this song in my head several times a day. I wake up with it playing in my head and I'll find myself very happily humming along or singing it. Yesterday Joy Collins posted music her husband on the other side played for her, and it was this song: Perfect song for people with loved ones on the other side, but at the 1:25 mark it got personal to me as they began using the word "Always".  Irene and I would always sign notes and cards to each other with the world "Always".  On September 8th of last year she brought my attention to a new "our song" by Shania Twain - "Forever and For Always".  I was writing a reply to Joy when I remembered that "Always" was also the  name of the very first movie I ever took Irene out to see, starring Richard Dreyfuss and Holly Hunter.  I remember I wanted to take her to it because it had Holly Hunter in it and I told Irene she reminded me of her.  I went to Wik...

As most readers of this blog know, virtually every day since she crossed over Irene has drawn a version of this in the coffee I set out for her every morning: Sometimes it's more elaborate, very rarely it's something else.  This happens regardless of if the AC is on (a few feet from the coffee table), the ceiling fan, or if there is a stand fan blowing in the room.  The flower in her cup has played a significant role in other signs she has given me over the past 10 months.  Once when I told her that she could stop if she wanted, thinking it must be a natural phenomena and that it would continue, nothing appeared in her cup the next two days until I asked her to please continue.  She was proving to me that it was her. A few days ago I saw a hummingbird outside - one of her favorite birds.  Also, lately I've been deeply exploring our visualizations, which has become our main venue for interaction, for writing our afterlife adventure book. Early yesterday I...

So this happened yesterday. I was getting ready to go into town and talking to Irene jokingly, calling her my "co-pilot" because she would always keep a lookout on my right side when I drive because I'm blind in that eye. I said, "Why don't you play me another song that will blow my mind?" I was just being humorous because of the last time I went into town she did just that. I had forgotten some mail I wanted to take to the post office and by the time I got to the car I had forgotten completely about asking her for a song. I turned the radio on because she likes to listen to music and started down the road, and a song immediately started up that had a musical intro. But I was completely oblivious to the music beyond that as I talked to her about other things on my mind. We went down the highway and at one point the memory of my having asked her to play a song just jumped like a blaring horn into my head, interrupting the conversation and she told me t...

Yesterday and today I've been visualizing a certain kind of afterlife adventure that Irene and I will be enjoying quite often. The adventure begins with us inserting ourselves into alternate versions of our Earthly timeline at certain points in our lives here, but with only one of us remembering that we are on an afterlife adventure and having the capability of pulling us both out of it whenever that person decides. The adventure begins with one of us arriving at a pre-planned scene whether the other will be - in her case, getting off of work at a place she worked at for a while in Temple, TX, and the other when I was sitting outside where I worked on my motorcycle late at night - or some similar arrangement. The one who knows what is going on gets to "woo" the other, armed with unlimited funds and complete knowledge of their history, while the other has only the memories of their history in that particular timeline. So, for one, it will be like meeting the other and...