Love After Life

I had a weird experience the past couple of days that coincided with a lot of information shared by members of the Love After Life group recently, and my own prior experiences, that has led me to adopt a slightly different paradigm about what I'm doing in working towards fuller transdimensional experiences and the goal of increased, full astral projection experiences with Irene. I'm consolidating it here in the case others find it helpful. One of the common themes of many experiences here is that they just sort of unexpectedly happen - whether we feel good at the time or bad, whether we are trying or not at the time, etc. They seem to occur without our knowledge of how to trigger them and whether or not, at the time, we are even trying to trigger them. My weird experience was this: my client called me and said that Firefox wasn't properly loading and displaying the company website I created via WIX (we transferred to WIX so that they can operate it and make changes e...

Just got finished talking to Irene for a while on the porch, and she brought some things to my attention so that I could put them together and share. The thing I did differently that led to that sweet dream yesterday was a kind of meditation (which I **needed** because of the emotions my daughter hit me with) and employed a very particular kind of visualization. There have been several threads of experience and information that have culminated in this method of having deeper experiences with Irene, dreams, and hopefully more astral projection experiences with her. As many of you know, I'm always looking to refine my technique in the hopes of being able to astral project with Irene at will. A lot of the techniques about how to astral project (well, all of them that I'm aware of) have a common thread: focusing on the textural reality of something as you are either trying to leave your body or as you are visualizing. It's also described as a way to stabilize your astral...

The other day one of my daughters came to stay with me for a while - wanted to move back to the area and get a job here. OMG it was like getting hit by an emotional tsunami. I had to actually go full-lotus meditation for about 30 minutes before I was right again. As we become more sensitive and tuned to the more subtle forms of communication between us and our crossed-over partners, this can have the unintended consequence of making us more open to those same forms of interaction with people still here. Keep in mind that some of the things your feel may not even be **your** emotions or sensations. There has been a long series of events that sort of culminated with that meditation yesterday, which included a conversation with Mary Beth, Irene's Ipad use some time ago and what she brought my attention to, comments Jurgen Ziewe said about astral projection and what a member said in the Zoom group yesterday about their increased capacity to visualize. There is a process tow...

First-Person Experiential Research: Using Hypnagogic States as Bridging Dimensions For Afterlife Interaction For the record, I have a theory of mind and multidimensional existence that I use as the foundation of my personal experimentation. It's "scientific" in the sense that my experimentation is designed along the lines of "If my concept of of mind works, then I should be able to do X and see positive, corresponding results." I've been doing hypnagogic state exploration to be with Irene for many months (if not over a year now), and that process (which begins with the prayer, intention and visualization) is what delivered the unexpected full astral projection visitation I had with her. That experience is what motivated me to pursue this particular line of investigation. However, those semi-conscious hypnagogic visualizations prior to the astral projection, and up until recently, seemed to be utterly random and never included Irene, and if I pulle...

I just laid down for a visualization/transdimensional session. I was visualizing us having a conversation about our process and whether or not our current methods were good. I told her I'd like some confirmation on what we talked about during the visualization and my consciousness shifted to an semi-clear astral state; not as vivid as the fully clarified astral visitation but still not a dream or a visualization. She was right in front of me giving me an "okay" sign and then she leaned forward to kiss me back into my normal state of consciousness much like she did in the astral visitation. I'm VERY excited by this! It's SO nice to get a clear confirmation and encouragement in this way, so great for her to be able to tell me we are in sync and on course!

Am I doing enough? Too much? Am I doing it the right way? Trying too hard? Not hard enough? Am I bothering Irene? Am I too needy? Are my negative thoughts and emotions setting us back? Are they keeping us from going forward? Does she have other things to do? Am I boring her by saying the same thing over and over? Should I meditate more? Wake myself up in the middle of the night? Is that really her when I imagine her? When I feel her? What food, drink, medications or habits should I give up or take up to help? Should I try automatic writing, EVPs? How much effort should I put in them? Does Irene really want to do those things? Should I find a medium? At one point or another, every conceivable doubt and issue has crossed my mind with regards to my transdimensional relationship with Irene. Some were very fleeting, some were more difficult to process. IMO (in my opinion), none of what those doubts and fears refer to had as much impact on our transdimensional relationship than the wo...

I want to make a post fully describing the technique that I believe actually led to my full astral visitation with Irene yesterday. I don't know how well it will work for others. If it resonates with you, maybe give it some consideration. It took over a year of trying different techniques, practice and effort, and the fact is that I cannot be completely sure that these techniques were the actual cause of my success. All I can do here is report to the best of my ability. The first few months after Irene crossed over, I tried several techniques I saw on how to "astral project", or leave your body and have an experience in the astral/heavenly worlds. None of them ever resonated with me. I also tried a lot of formal, lotus-position meditating, and while that put me in what I felt was a closer frequency vibration with Irene, and provided some really great visualizations, it only resonated with me to do that kind of thing sporadically. Based on several different points ...

Last night I couldn't get to sleep. I figured it was because it was so hot outside and kind of warm in the bedroom, so I was up until about midnight. I had tried about seven EVP contacts yesterday, with one just before I went to bed. As I've shared here and in the zoom group, our main focus has been being able to have some sort of visitation/contact, while I was conscious and aware, in the visualization-hypnagogic-dream and beyond states. That's been our goal for months now, as I've been affirming it, bringing it into my daily narration, and attempting it every time I lay down for a nap or to go to sleep. At about 3:00 a.m., one of my daughters called with some issue she was having. Again, I couldn't get back to sleep, so I stayed up talking to Irene and we wrote my earlier post together, after which I was exhausted and laid back down to do some "transdimensionalizing" with her. I started the usual way by visualizing that I had my arms wrapped a...

So what I'm excited to be doing now along with writing my new book is developing what I call "Alternative Dimensional Transition Methodology", or ADTM for short. It's based on the framework outlined previously in the Identity Matrix Model of Reality ( Part 1 & Part 2 ), supported by the Craig Hogan videos (President of AREI), which views the "external world" as being, in actuality, non-physical in nature, but rather an "Experiential Reality", as Mr. Hogan describes it. Most of our afterlife nomenclature and modeling revolves around there being actual realities outside of mind.  We use terms like levels of spirit realms, worlds, vibrational levels, etc.  We think of NDE and OOBE experiences as "leaving the body" or moving from one actual physical location to another. Death is characterized as leaving this world and going somewhere else.  I think words and terms used from this model may be inefficient in many cases. I don't li...

A couple of days ago I was sitting out on the front porch talking with Irene.  The conversation turned to things we remembered from our time together here, the things that were very easy to remember, really "burning bright" in our minds.  We went through probably about a dozen different memories and talked about how much they meant to us. Afterward I realized I had basically dug into memories and didn't have a single moment where I felt sad.  Usually going though memories is like walking through a minefield, but that's gradually changed over time and now I can pretty much freely think about he past without it causing me sorrow.  Going through those memories actually made me very happy and we had a great time and quite a few laughs. Night before last my daughter Gerra called and we talked most of the night. After I went back to sleep early in the morning I had my first astral projection, exactly the way I intend/affirm every day -by  just finding myself astra...

Sunday I got to meet several people associated with AREI and in that Facebook group in an international video conference.  What a surreal experience. I'm still trying to re-orient myself after that and another busy weekend with the family.  I'm going to be learning how to be a facilitator for such groups in the future.  Right now they are regularly scheduled for early Sunday mornings my time.  It's really interesting to have conversations with completely sincere people about things like mediumship, the afterlife, NDEs and OOBEs ... it normalizes a whole set of concepts and experiences in a way that's difficult to achieve without that kind of group-based psychological and emotional support. This morning I had a dream of Irene. It was only a few moments, but I did get to hear her voice and see her pretty clearly.  She looked to be 35-40.  I was so happy when I woke up!  It seems that adding the HE practice to my daily process, and establishing that fir...

Another really busy family day Sunday so I didn't have the time or energy to blog yesterday, but it was a good day. The key word and idea the past couple of days has been "allowing".  Even when things are going well, I still overthink and try to come up with solutions to problems that don't even exist.  For example, sometimes when I wake up I feel completely ambivalent about praying and meditating, and I immediately characterize it as a problem I need to solve. I consider it a "problem" because I'm worried that feeling ambivalent is the beginning of a trend, that I'm going to lose my connection to Irene and the desire to blog or write anything about this journey or my experiences or thoughts..  It never happens - the ambivalence I feel some days always passes whether I obsess about it or not, but my mind refuses to just let it go. Of course, when I think about how things could be, such as being wracked with grief or having serious health issue...

Last night I asked for help in astral projection and to have dreams I could remember and would be helpful in that attempt and the continued strengthening of the connection between me and Irene, and also to open me up to more help from my spirit team. Waking up about 3:30 a.m. or so, I stayed up a little bit deciding what to do. I had read that it's best to attempt astral projection after you wake up but before your body and mind has time to go into full wakefulness mode. So I lay back down to try to get into the "drifting off" state they described but not to actually fall asleep.  That was relatively easy since I had two cups of decaf before going to bed and I kept having to use the bathroom! Irene was in one of the dreams; someone was helping me look through a book of images and there was one with Irene, and as I looked it turned into a video of her walking through what looked like a mall with my brother, his wife and my sister. I was looking at the scene from high a...

By the time "trouble hour" rolled around yesterday (6:00 pm), I was having a comparatively down day.  I had so much going on in my head and it was like mush, and I had little mini-pity parties on and off.  I just made sure to do my regular things and, as I wrote yesterday, cleared out all the mental stuff, asked for some help from the spirit team, and let go of trying to figure things out and trust the process. I was hoping for a dream last night. I did in fact have some dreams I remember.  While they were not spectacular, they did seem to help my attitude out, because shortly after I woke up and had some coffee, I understood that I had been pressing too much.  It's a bad habit I have that goes along with thinking too much. This goes along with what I'm here to learn - to have faith and trust.  Like Irene told me some time ago, I do plenty as far as intention, affirmation, work, etc.  After that I just need to let go and let God, the universe, her and...

I had another exhausting day yesterday with family - good, but exhausting.  I get hit with way too many frequencies and basically end up needing to isolate myself, but at least now it's back to the usual impact and I don't have to constantly worry about crashing or having emotional "attacks" during such events. Today has been very interesting.  I lay down a couple of times for astral projection attempts while falling asleep and began trying to focus on the semi-dream imagery that would begin to play out as I was drifting off.  It was hard to remember what was going on in those scenarios when I would pull myself awake.  The second time I lay down to do this there were a couple of things that stood out - one was when someone in my field of view said "Let me give you this" and walked over to  hand me something. It looked like a small square piece of plastic in their palm.  Another time someone asked very clearly "Why do we doubt?"  Putting it in ...

What a day I had yesterday.  So sorry I wasn't able to post, but I by the time I got home I was really too drained to do anything with my brain other than eat, walk the dogs and go to sleep early. We had a meeting with an attorney over some of the issues that came crashing into our lives earlier this week and that took longer than expected.  I can't get into any of it here, but let's just say it's something that would ordinarily be very, very stressful, even though it didn't directly involve me.  I never really felt stressed, although my mind was more on those issues than anything else, and I kept having to refocus on our happy frequency again and again.  It did keep me feeling centered and really rather removed from the situation. Also, driving tends to wear me out and I ran other errands in town, so I'm sure that contributed to the draining fatigue I felt yesterday evening. Other than that, though, I felt great mentally and emotionally - I didn't crash...

I finished the first draft of my book, Transdimensional Love and I'm preparing it for a round of proofreading, editing and criticism.  It shouldn't be much longer before it is ready to be posted here since it is very concise and gets right to the process I used to overcome grief and reclaim my happy, satisfying relationship with Irene. Today was pretty much an all-kids day so there wasn't much time to meditate or work, and my routine was thrown way off without any naps, but even around my danger hour of 6:00 pm I was pretty much okay.  That's about when I able to meditate for the second time, the first one coming early this morning.  All in all I feel pretty good and I know Irene is happy about my spending the day with the kids.  I am looking forward to another astral projection attempt as I fall asleep here in a bit; that half-conscious state is becoming a good source of feeling connected. The main focus for me now is focusing on the positive empowerment of our...

Yesterday I had a little trouble with my mental discipline - ate a little too much, smoked more than two cigarettes - but after a good talk with Irene last night I'm back on track today.  I had another blissful meditation this morning, and it's like getting a concentrated shot of Irene for the day.  It's really incredible.  Had another one just like it in the early afternoon and had to lay down and attempt to astral project due to the totally buzzed feeling.  I didn't astral project, but I did have a good nap. I was surprised by how much I was able to work today.  I remember that before when I went even an hour concentrating on work I'd find myself starting to panic because I hadn't been thinking of Irene. Today I was able to put quite a bit of continuous time at a sitting between walking the dogs and doing my light exercises.  One of my exercises is walking up and down our stairs five round-trips and I started imagining each trip up as a trip up to the ...

So weirdly, again, I was blocked again by circumstances from trying to astral project today. One thing after another kept intervening.  A few weeks ago when I was trying to astral project the position I was using and the techniques were very uncomfortable and my I kept either having a very dry and sticky throat or allergy drainage.  I'm wondering if there is some reason I'm not supposed to be astral projecting or if this is another example of my current mental habits trying to stop me from traveling out of my current state by throwing obstacles in my way. That's something Irene and I noticed during our lives that whenever we were trying some new habit or lifestyle change to alter course, suddenly there would be all kinds of obstacles.  We recognized the pattern - it's like trying drive a car out of a rut you've cut by going on the same path over and over - getting out of the rut isn't smooth as you bound over the ridge and then have to drive outside of the smo...

Today I added a new practice to my routine.  It will be daily attempts to astral project from a lying-down position using a technique I'll be posting as permanent blog page.  Since I usually wake up at around four in the morning, it's easy for me to take a nap in the early afternoon, so I'll be primed to try this "falling asleep" astral projection technique, which is similar to others I've read about and have seen on videos, every day at a regular time.  I'll also be doing this when I go to bed for the night, and then perhaps I'll have opportunities while sleeping and/or dreaming. It's not complicated and it doesn't require any special tricks, positions or techniques - it's really just about maintaining your consciousness and keeping focus while your body shuts down the way it normally does when you go to sleep.  After I wrote yesterday about attempting astral projection to try and connect better with Irene, this morning Dillon Glover pr...