Love After Life

A series of interesting events has led me to become fully invested in a further iteration of the "mental reality" framework that not only dispenses with so-called "spiritual levels", but also the idea of distinctly different, separated dimensions.  It is my view now that literally everything is right in front of us, around us, within us, and it is our cognitive consciousness that sorts out what we experience and what we do not. Irene is not in another dimension; she is literally right here with me. My inability to see her the way I used to is a psychological issue, nothing more. It is cognitive blindness: I cannot experience that which does not fit within this framework of my conscious psychology and its connected subconscious psyche.  It's all part of mental reality and how it works to organize experience from our own psyche. Irene and I were talking about this when someone posted a link, in the Love After Life group, about a movie coming out where a youn...

I'm having great success with my technique for better remembering altered-consciousness states.  Every day I spend time reviewing all the dreams I can remember - from childhood to the present, either in meditation during the day or after I like down for the night. I pay particular attention to the dreams I've had of Irene. I started doing this about a week or week and a half ago and, other than one day, I've been remembering dreams every single day.  This is after literally years and years of virtually never remembering any dreams, now I'm remembering dreams every day.  By doing this every day I've actually started remembering dreams I had long ago forgotten.  I've started writing down not only my current dreams the day they occur, but also all the other dreams I'm remembering from my past. My intention every time I meditate, lie down to visualize or sleep is to have the best possible transdimensional visit with Irene, and to remember my altered-consciousn...

Had another dream of Irene and myself and woke up afterward at about 2:00 am ... after I told her to be sure I remember dreams of us even if she has to wake me up in the middle of the night. I laid back down after a couple of hours of work and after about 20 minutes I couldn't tell if my eyes were shut or not. I was seeing a horizon with trees silhouetted against a purple light source behind them. Behind that I could see what seemed to be the faint image of my pillows and headboard. This didn't feel at all like hypnagogia and it wasn't the same as astral sight.  I could open my eyes and shut them and it still didn't feel like I had them shut - it felt like they were wide open. On three separate occasions yesterday I did a full-lotus position meditation for 30 minutes. It is very easy and natural and after a couple of minutes I'm usually very relaxed and feel a vibration like being high on a drug (I guess - I've never actually been high on a drug).  In the latter...

As I wrote in an earlier blog, my daughter coming to live with me brought in some serious challenges for me to have to deal with mentally, and it went beyond the initial emotional vibration.  It felt like I was being pushed out of my current dimensional structure and it was rather unsettling.  The first thing I needed to do was take responsibility and take command instead of simply reacting and trying to sort out and deal with my reactions.  I assigned my daughter's issues to "spirit" - I could only do what I could do for her, which did not include solving her lifelong problems.  She had a safe place to live, food, etc.  The rest was up to her and her spirit team. Second, I began affirmations that all of this was ultimate in our (Irene's and my) benefit. Third, I knew that to keep on vibratory track with what Irene and I were doing, I'd have to keep doing full-lotus position meditation along with visualizations to keep from being emotionally dragged into my daug...

Irene has started making appearances in my hypnagogic experiences lately.  My perspective on this is that we are achieving progress on creating our transdimensional bridge.  She has validated this a couple of times and the information I get from our talks is often validated from other sources.  I've also been having new and increasing physical sensations when we sit and talk; a very pleasant tingling on my left side, where she sits.  When I affirm to her where and what I'm feeling, she'll touch another part of my body and I'll feel the same thing, which is a combination of a cool, physical tingling and an emotional sweetness. During our group meditation Saturday, my visualization with Irene on the group astral cruise liner suddenly became focused on the two of us in an area of the ship where there was live music and dancing, and we were slow-dancing to "Tennessee Whiskey" by Chris Stapleton . It was amazing and we were just locked into to it for several minute...

The other day Irene took control of my iPad while I was laying in bed looking over some things of interest. She opened up iBooks (took several times with me shutting it down before I realized it was her) and kept trying to open the book "The Phase", which is about a supposedly easy technique for astral projection. She kept trying to open the book so I opened it myself, then she flipped through several pages and landed on one page that had a diagram of two overlapping two, one marked "REM Sleep" and the other "Consciousness", with the common area marked "The Phase", including lucid dreaming, astral projection, out of body experiences, etc. She enlarged the diagram to get my attention. During all this, I was holding the iPad up and away from me with my palms only touching the edge of the case. She then flipped back and forth several times on a few pages, which I took to mean that she wanted me to read those pages in particular. I did so. ...

The problem of social conditioning has been percolating in my mind for a several days now.  Irene and I have been discussing it.  It's been part of our Zoom group discussions the past couple of meetings and this morning I realized the importance of a certain part of my efforts with Irene to establish an enjoyable transdimensional relationship with her. One of the main aspects of my interaction with Irene since shortly after her death was thinking about and planning our future.  When you think about it, this activity is directly in contrast with the ongoing social conditioning that the dead are "gone." Our Pinterest boards about what kind of "afterlife" we want to experience, collecting imagery and ideas about where and how we want to live, what we want to do, what we want to have in our life, has been over-writing the conditioning that "she's gone" and that "we" have "ended."  Before Pinterest, we used vision boards where you...

I blame Kim LaCapria for triggering the following, which is a channeled download. As always, I apologize for the authoritarian tone and pease, take what resonates and dismss the rest: I'll be using the term "mind" for the most part, but others can substitute "soul" our "spirit" if those terms better fit their perspective in the following post. Most people think of mind in terms of a distinct three-dimensional construct, probably because the culture deeply associates the mind with the physical brain.  Those of us involved in the afterlife community understand that the mind is not the brain, because it survives death and continues on - same personality, same memories, but not in any essential way equivalent to the physical brain.  Therefore, memories, thoughts, our personalities, ideas emotional connections do not represent physically located and physically caused phenomena. In my old Eastern Indian philosophy, the core essence of an individual was...

I just laid down for a visualization/transdimensional session. I was visualizing us having a conversation about our process and whether or not our current methods were good. I told her I'd like some confirmation on what we talked about during the visualization and my consciousness shifted to an semi-clear astral state; not as vivid as the fully clarified astral visitation but still not a dream or a visualization. She was right in front of me giving me an "okay" sign and then she leaned forward to kiss me back into my normal state of consciousness much like she did in the astral visitation. I'm VERY excited by this! It's SO nice to get a clear confirmation and encouragement in this way, so great for her to be able to tell me we are in sync and on course!

Last night I couldn't get to sleep. I figured it was because it was so hot outside and kind of warm in the bedroom, so I was up until about midnight. I had tried about seven EVP contacts yesterday, with one just before I went to bed. As I've shared here and in the zoom group, our main focus has been being able to have some sort of visitation/contact, while I was conscious and aware, in the visualization-hypnagogic-dream and beyond states. That's been our goal for months now, as I've been affirming it, bringing it into my daily narration, and attempting it every time I lay down for a nap or to go to sleep. At about 3:00 a.m., one of my daughters called with some issue she was having. Again, I couldn't get back to sleep, so I stayed up talking to Irene and we wrote my earlier post together, after which I was exhausted and laid back down to do some "transdimensionalizing" with her. I started the usual way by visualizing that I had my arms wrapped a...

I've really grown to love doing what I call "transdimensionalizing" when I'm laying down for a nap or going to bed for the night.  As I lay there visualizing and mentally experiencing having my arms wrapped around Irene and talking with her, my body starts to fall asleep while I stay mentally alert. This produces a sensation of peace and connection that seeps into the rest of my day and has been slowly providing me with an even greater sense of continued relationship and clarity. I believe this practice has led to a couple of good dreams of Irene, but honestly it just feels so good I don't really care if it is leading anywhere (even though I know it is). The other day I decided to go ahead and try more EVPs (after a couple of signs), and even bought a desktop microphone specifically for that purpose.  I wrapped my head around this by realizing that, whether or not it produces any significant results, it's still an intent and action towards better communicati...

Since yesterday, for whatever reason, I've decided to start playing the guitar again, and to start painting again.  I think it might have something to do with the new comfort level Irene and I have achieved, where I don't feel like our transdimensional relationship is in jeopardy if I don't give it my constant attention.  I haven't done any painting in about 4 years and haven't even picked up a guitar in about 10. It's not that I'm really that good at either - I'm not - but I do enjoy both.  At several points after coming into this afterlife information I thought it would be fun, when I would be with Irene on the other side, to learn more about painting and playing the guitar. I would be free to do so - plenty of time, no other concerns, etc., plus the easy availability of instructors and teachers. Yesterday I realized I'm actually living in that situation right now.  I can do anything during the day I want. I schedule my own work hours.  I can set...

In our Zoom Group one of the participants said something that got me to thinking - about how many people say they want contact with their crossed-over loved one, but are unwilling to put in much effort to make it happen. From my own experience, I can say that a problem that I had to wrestle with in going down the path of developing a good transdimensional relationship with Irene was fear of failure. Sometimes I felt like it was just easier to hold on to the pain and live as best I could that way instead of compounding it by trying to develop communication and interaction with her and failing. Every time I reached a new place of reduced grief and sorrow was like a tiny ledge on a sheer rock wall I was attempting to climb, a place I just wanted to set up camp and stay instead of risking it all by trying to go further. That's basic survival instinct - even if a state of existence is painful, if you can at least survive in that state, it's hard to risk it for the unknown. ...

Earlier this week I had a very sweet, intimate dream of Irene. Later in the day she confirmed, with a couple of signs, that it was actually us and that we are succeeding creating our dream space get-togethers.  Since it's become too hot to sit out on the porch to spend time smoking with Irene, I've started using the living area connected to my office.  It's got a 42" flat screen in it that never gets used unless the grandchildren come over and want to play games or watch TV.  I found a YouTube video that is 8 hours of a hi-def view of a tropical beach with crystal blue waters.  The waves and birds create a fantastic sound we can listen to and watch while we smoke, and it's easy to imagine us curled up in our big lounge on the beach, going for a swim or taking a walk and feeling the sand beneath our feet. The first time I did this, and every time afterward, my heart just starts to rush with a very strong emotional connection to Irene.  It's really interestin...

Thursday and Friday night I had dreams of Irene that I remembered.  The first was really sweet and intimate, and in the second she was taller than she was in the physical and looked really regal, with long black hair and a long flowing white dress, almost like a wedding dress.  Our efforts at developing our capacity for transdimensional interaction is making positive gain. I've kept up with my new routine and I'm really enjoying it. and I feel like I've made strides as far as my mental discipline is concerned, which I'm sure can't be hurting our capacity to interact.  Thursday I woke up from the dream very happy, and as the day wore on and Irene let me know that it was her and gave me a confirmation Friday.  My sense of Irene kept getting stronger and stronger through the day. I see the days as cyclic time segments of experience.  My goal is to develop my awareness so that, in that cycle, I can find satisfaction, enjoyment, happiness with Irene and peace in ...

I've already written here about some of this, but the flood of synchronicities lately has me wanting to at least write some of them down. Some of it is so interwoven you really have to follow the tracks. A few weeks ago I made the decision to not do any more EVP attempts and I told Irene that if she wanted to do it let me know.  Last Friday before last there was a guy in our soul mate group who asked if he could try to use EVP to contact Irene.  He did so and she responded that she was there and we are soul mates.  Later that day she changed the channel to her favorite show and then, when I attempted to watch a recorded show, she made a different one come on (instead of the one I clicked) and that show started with a character talking to his dead wife (even though that scene had absolutely nothing to do with the rest of the show.) My blog post from May thirteenth describes an incredible synchronicity where an obscure but famous person from another country and been broug...

The past couple of days I've adhered to a new daily pattern that is the result of thinking about what I'd actually do once in the afterlife with Irene, and then adhering to a pattern of behavior now that includes those things or the closest approximation.  I realized that more and more of my daily, habitual patterns had become more about "waiting" to cross over, and that didn't seem to me to be a very positive subconscious pattern to fall into.  It doesn't involve anything drastic, just cutting back on certain enjoyments and activities I was engaging in beyond their "fulfillment" factor and adding in or increasing other activities that matched the idea of my afterlife desires.  So far, I feel even better and enjoy the new routine. Whether or not anything more comes of it will be something to keep an eye on, because I did this to deliberately more closely match my Earth pattern and vibration to what I want my afterlife to be like. So, I spend more t...

I'm writing Irene letters more often now. Instead of hand-writing them, which is a very painstaking process for me that usually ends up taking several days, I just type them up using the computer and then hand-write or draw on them. I'm also sending her portions of the new book with the letters. It makes the process easier and less daunting and she said it's totally fine.  I realize she knows most of the stuff I'm writing her about, but that's not the point; I just enjoy it and she enjoys getting letters from me. It helps empower the connection. We had our first Zoom meeting for Your Eternal Romantic Relationship and I thought it went really well. I felt far more comfortable in that group than I do in the automatic writing group. It will be interesting to see how it develops. There were about 6 people there, not including the hosts. The same transdimensional things have been occurring - signs from Irene, confirmations, visualizations, hypnagogic activit...

I've had a couple more of those strong connection sensations today.  It is so sweet and transcendent - an emotion or sensation there is no word for.  I remember getting this sensation before and it was very confusing because it caused some sorrow at the same time, I remember writing here that I felt it was because it was Irene and her presence generated the sorrow of missing her. Now, this sensory, vibrational quality of her presence "touching" me, or going through me, isn't bringing up any sadness, just this very unique and comforting feeling that affects me throughout. I posted the rough draft of the book on the blog today so that people who come here looking for relief from their grief will at least be able to read how it happened for me. As I read back through the book, and in doing so referred back to some prior posts, I find so utterly unbelievable that I can really, actually feel this way.  It's like our relationship never stopped being this good - as...

Sort of a regular day today, although I've had a bit of a negative attitude.  I asked Irene if she was interested in doing EVP, or Electronic Voice Phenomena techniques (recording "white noise" for transdimensional communication).  I got a couple of iffy signals back.  I decided that it wasn't a big deal to try since I can upload recordings from my iPad directly to google drive and then they'll be available on my drive to open with Adobe Audition.  I'm kind of ambivalent about it today.  On the one hand, I'm pretty happy about where we're at, relationship-wise and with my own emotional state, and I'm resistant to doing something that might set me back. On the other hand, I'm really more interested in getting to a point where we can have a full-blown visitation.  I'm not that enthused about poring over hours of recordings to see if I can find Irene's voice, although I must say that would be pretty cool.  The only thing is, I know we ha...